*groans* my legs are aching from clubbing. wonder if my heels are the main culprits. music was not bad but summer rain came early and i had nothing to look forward to for the rest of the night. i'm juz simply hard to please. the crowd was made up of mostly NTU people as expected and that's probably one of the factors that contributed to my boredom. maybe i'm juz thinking too much and letting my thoughts run wild. or is it the time of the year when i get too much stuff on hand that i become a little emotionally unstable. *shrug* sometimes i wouldn't blame certain people for finding me a nuisance coz my words and actions irritate myself at times. i'm letting my heart rule over my head once again and making things difficult for everyone. i wish i can control my feelings better and be more rational. but can i? *sigh* the night seemed short. was out of zouk at 4 and headed to shell. wasn't paying attention to what was going on. though i was physically there, my mind had drifted off elsewhere. was messaging HIM but stopped when i realised it's not getting anywhere. i'm really at a loss. what should i do? or rather what can i do? *sigh* highlight of the night was teasing sebastian. shall limit the details to those who were present before he starts hating me. hope you wouldn't take it to heart. we were juz kidding. or are we? *grins* hanged out till 6 plus and reached back hall at 7. surprised to receive someone's sms while on the cab. makes me wonder if i was being over petty. *wonders* feeling real tired now and i can't believe i hafta go all the way to joo chiat for my rehearsal later. the weather's freaking hot and i juz don't feel like moving. don't seem to have a choice though. good luck to me!

*All out of love*

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone

Thinking of you till it hurts

I know you hurt too but what else can we do

Tormented and torn apart

I wish I could carry your smile and my heart

For times when my life feels so low

It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring

When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you

I know you were right believing for so long

I 'm all out of love, what am I without you

I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home

Away from this long lonely nights

I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too

Does the feeling seem oh so right

And what would you say if I called on you now

And said that I can't hold on

There's no easy way, it gets harder each day

Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone