The feeling really sux! Big time! Never in my life have I been so unlucky. Can't believe there could be so many 'coincidenceS' in one night. While dancing on the platform on Saturday night at Double O, saw a familiar figure. Realised that it was the guy I've been longing to forget upon closer look. Did not expect to see him there at all. He never did frequent the place. Took out my handphone and dropped him a msg. No reply as expected. However, not long after, he appeared on the dance floor with his new found ger fren. *sigh* Surprisingly, it did not hit me that hard seeing him dancing so intimately with her. My night was further spoilt by the technical fault which lasted for almost 15 mins! After the music resumed, I was in no mood to dance at all. Who would have expect me to bump into him while leaving the dance floor. He was juz there! Right beside me! I quickened my pace and almost broke into a run. Juz as I thot I will not see him anymore, he came out of the door with her again while I was deciding where to go next with Grace. I could not believe my luck! Or rather, the lack of it. It was the last straw when he walked past me a 2nd time in the opposite direction. After this fateful night, I thought that all my feelings for him were gone. But guess I was wrong, seeing him again at mambo tonight was kinda upsetting. I dunno why, but I juz cant help but feel the heartache. I'm so useless. I actually msged him to tell him that I miss him. Wonder why I did that. He would not be bothered anyway. I'm such a big fool. *sigh*

*sigh* feel like a total idiot! got played out by sumone whom i trusted so much. i really thot he was serious, he was so nice to me, it was really like a dream cum true. after quanrong, i nv felt this way before. shrug, if he had been honest and tell me it was a fling he was looking for, i would haf played along, but he din. that's wat pissed me off the most i guess. it's really a lousy feeling to be put ur feelings into a relationship and get nothing in the end. shd really nv trust a clubber. and im beginning to believe in retribution. prob i shd juz stop being so mean to other guys? i mite get good return? i've learnt a lesson, the hard way.