shouldn't i be sleeping?

can't hold back my temper any longer. prejudiced or not? i don't care. i simply don't like the way how one can back up for another for no good or apparent reason. evil and selfish? yes, that's me! i'm sure i can do much better than her but you juz want to help her keep her job. you said she cannot commit 100% because of her other job scope. since she can't cope, i offered to take over. it would ease communication, reduce lag time and minimize loss in information. why should i bother myself with this in the 1st place? i'm not getting a pay rise nor promotion for doing additional work. i juz simply don't understand what is so difficult about clicking the 'forward' button of outlook. it's not as simple as it seems and i agree! but that's what she has been doing! i know i was at fault for raising my voice at you and i'm sorry for being rude. please do reflect if you had been over-protective of her as well. if i'm the only one feeling this way, it might be my problem. but if 10 others feel the same way, i believe the process needs to be reviewed. it's time for me to move on. counting down...

steamboat at bugis with serena, joshua, agnes, john and dear princess nina. seems to be our favourite meeting place for dinner. *grins* really miss the times working together. i wonder why working with them is so much happier and easier? i guess there're no conflict of interest and that's why. i suppose we had build up a strong bond over the years that is hard to break.

atmosphere at home is still a little tense. mum seems to have gotten better but i've yet to figure out the truth behind her weird behaviour. i'm on the verge of giving up and i'm escaping from it. staying out later than usual everyday so that i do not have to face her without dad and minimise contact is my strategy. her long note had a huge impact on me. i know i have to stay strong but i don't know how much longer i can hold out.

there're juz too much things on my mind which i wanna throw out. i only want to fill my mind with happy memories. i realise i'm becoming more dependant on him and that's not a good sign. i'm missing him more and more. couldn't believe i would do this much for him. i do not expect anything in return. think i'm falling, falling deep...

iPhone Craze

i know i'm slow but i received my 3GS yesterday! it's been a long wait. can't decide what to do with it now that i've laid my hands on one. excited as i can be, i've yet to take it out of the package. i'm not in need of a phone considering the numerous handsets i carry with me. it's the IN thing which everyone has, so i must own it as well (even if it's just for a day *laughs*). must have been an overdose of reading bimbotic blogs that caused this silliness. much as i wanna keep it, it's hard to resist the temptations of making a profit of more than 100%. i'm loving my iPhone 3GS!

Shirleen

took leave yesterday for shirleen's 'farewell'. she's flying off early next friday morning with kee for their 4 months backpacking trip. i'm so gonna miss her. went cycling at east coast park in the late morning. it was a great 2 hours ride though we got caught in drizzle twice. headed down to de coder's cafe at balmoral plaza for another 3 hours of board games session. we were introduced to 2 new games and i was the all-time loser! grr.. it was all in the name of fun! as expected, hazel and grace couldn't join us for dinner last minute and hence we went ahead with our wine and cheese plan after our light dinner packed from gardens market. chilled out at shirleen's till late with jay and jerald joining us past midnight.

他回来了，但我却还是那么苦恼。心情总有些忐忑不安，似乎就快面临崩溃。夜深人静时，总是不经意地想起他。这一切即将结束。或许那时不应该放纵，让自己深深地爱上他，又一次一次地舍不得放手。我真的很想他。

想用一杯latte把你灌醉
好让你能多爱我一点
暗恋的滋味
你不懂这种感觉
早有人陪的你永远不会

看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会

为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪

明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

曾经我以为我自己会后悔
不想爱的太多痴心绝对
为你落第一滴泪
为你做任何改变
也唤不回你对我的坚决