decided to blog a little while waiting for daniel to finish his phone call. playing mahjong at ziwei's house and guess what? he's actually sleeping. well, can really understand. working makes one extremely tired, at least for me. haven't been working for the past two days and i'm beginning to miss the place already. maybe it's coz my hall's production isn't going very well and i wonder why. ticket sales are kinda bad and morale is low. *sigh* what to do when even the JCRC is not really keen at supporting the event. why am i not surprised? pardon me. in the mood to complain tonight. it's the time of the year again. pretty consoled by the fact that many of the alumni are gonna turn up compared to the previous years. daniel's back. shall continue with my ranting later.

5th year into my university life. the feeling of having all my peers graduated with a stable job and i've yet to achieve anything in life juz sux. happy yet not happy. sad yet not upset. *laughs* don't bother if you are not getting it. i don't make any sense at times. back to the topic of production. tomorrow's the 1st show and less than half the seats were sold. no one except the producer seems to be affected by sales. shouldn't everyone hope to see full house? it makes me wonder why they were in the team in the 1st place. whatever it is, i hope all's gonna go well tomorrow. 1st musical production for the hall. original script and composition. plus i'm not the lead. *grins* MISE EN SCENE 2005 --- MISSING ROMEO

1st of all, apologies to those who have been faithfully reading my blog. been too caught up with everything except studies to update. *sigh* i'm currently attached to nokia as a part-time promoter. latest event is the starlight cinema held at the padang from the 15th to the 25th. do drop by for a visit if you happen to be in the area. wonder why but i'm beginning to love my job. maybe it's the nature of the job or it may be the money factor that keeps me going. *shrug* tiring but i'm actually looking forward to work. sounds strange ya? it's so unlike of me. juz back from supper with daniel at 179. had a 2 hours long conversation with him. been a long time since both of us had a good chat. feeling much better after letting everything out. sister, cheer up ya. at least things are starting to turn for the better. hope to hear more good news from you. *smiles* though i'm kinda full from the food i had, couldn't resist ling's offer of raffles hotel mooncake. there's only one word to describe --- heaven. i'm craving for more! it'll be a great idea if i could get some before heading to work later in the evening. *grins* recess week is over in a blink of the eye. supposed to start on my revision but as usual, i couldn't keep to my schedule. i had better start real soon if i don't wanna history to repeat. beginning to feel the tension a little. life seems to be pretty aimless and i'm juz not in the mood for anything. passing each and every single day without a goal in life. seriously, i myself do not know what i really want at this point in time. feeling kinda detached from hall, losing the sense of belonging. everything and everyone seems so unfamiliar. signs of aging probably. guess it's only a matter of time that i'll move back home. hall production is due at the end of the week. it's gonna be my last show for the hall i guess. contact me if you're interested to come for the play ya.

*sigh* did i catch the flu bug? or izzit my wisdom tooth that's giving me trouble? poor me. *pats* sometimes i juz love to indulge in self-pity. perhaps it would be better if there's someone else, someone special to comfort me. had a mahjong session with susan, eddie and haiyuan. *grins* 1 round of mahjong makes catherine a happier girl. wondering if i should catch some beauty sleep or should i finish my work 1st. gotta be at nokia headquarters at 10 to collect new phone --- N90. kinda excited. *smiles* looks like an interesting phone though it's a little bulky. gonna be working this weekend but i'll still be available in the night. *winks* music was good on wednesday but i wasn't really enjoying. couldn't spell out exactly what was bothering me. was it HIM? or was it him? in case you're wondering, especially jze wee, i've put an end to my so-called 'wonderful' situation. *shrug* there was a dear price to pay for that. glad to have people like jerry who will brighten up my night somehow. hanged out at shell with the usual group of people till dawn. exchanged jokes and riddles. most of which were pretty lame. but i hafta admit that it kinda made me felt better. i'm probably at the point of time when i do a lot of thinking. feeling a little morbid yet again. too much emotions that i don't wish to pen down. if only life could be simpler and happier.

*Bizzare Love Triangle*

Every time I think of you
I feel shot right through with a bow of gloom
It's no problem of mine
But it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
While every day my confusion grows

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like nobody should
Whenever I get this way
I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say