heartless, i honestly think i am. who would have broken up with your other half on the eve of valentines' day except me? sorry for the hurt i've brought upon you but i have no idea how else would i have the courage to do so. i feel i'm being devoured by guilt more than anything else. you've been really nice to me and you are more than what i could have ask for. but i guess marriage does not only involve the 2 of us. there're juz too many other factors to consider. the cause of our breakup is not what you deem it to be. at this point of time, i suppose you would not take any explanation but i really hope you would listen one day.

my life is back to normal - clubbing and mahjong. think i'll age really fast at the rate i'm depreciating my sleep. well, at least i feel more at ease and relieved. work is still never ending (growing exponentially in fact). there's supposed to be an increase in headcount to lighten our load. but it seems like there aren't any suitable candidates. *sigh* guess i gotta work my way through till the new guy comes in. realised that i miss mahjong-ing with adrian and peeps so badly. enjoyed myself throughout the whole night. xuanru: you owe me one big one wor! when you gonna jio me play mahjong? *bleah* can't believe that i still love clubbing as much as i did. *laughs* though i'm getting on in age, i could still dance the night away like there's no tomorrow. bumped into min at mambo last night and she juz couldn't stop laughing. miss the good old days.

my mind's been actively thinking of a statement someone made regarding myself. "you make a good girlfriend but not a good wife". what does that imply? there're many many ways of looking at it. of coz being me, i would think of it positively. but i guess he meant otherwise. at that point, it was like "ouch". maybe that's what they call retribution? if you ask, i do regret the decision i made 6 years back. though i felt it was for a good cause, he definitely did not share the same sentiments. wanted to feel better by talking things out, but ended up with more doubts hanging in my mind. my dear (if you're reading): you still owe me a 3 sms long answer! *grins*

great! i've finally changed a new look for my blog. promise to spend more time blogging rather than facebook. *laughs* looking back, 2007 has been a good year for me i suppose. everything seems to have gone on the right track - both work and relationship.

i'm pretty settled into my new role, much too comfortable that it's becoming a routine once again. i hate to say this, but i really need excitement at times to keep me going. many many changes have taken place over the past 6 months since my promotion and it's not the end. a handful of my peers have left or are leaving which makes me sad. HQ is currently undergoing major re-organisation which orphaned my team as our bosses have been promoted to regional office. i'm praying for the best for 2008.

one of the best thing that has happened in 2007 is probably the closer ties between the girls and me. simply love my girls. all thanks to our flexi hours and good locations of our offices, we do lunch more often. in addition, our lives have been much more happening. dempsey, rochester, cafe del ma.. we ventured into all possibilities in looking for a cosy place to chill out. also, we're in the midst of preparing for the wedding of princess gracie and the most exciting event would probably be the hen's party. *grins*

rumours has it that wedding bells are ringing for me. that's so not true! we've talked about it but no, he's not proposed yet. guess the biggest issue we face is the location of our new home and next, being able to get along with the in-laws. my girls would understand. *sigh* it's only when you start to plan that differences would start to surface. it isn't as easy as it seems i suppose. looking at the number of invites i have this year, either it's a very good year for marriage or juz that it's time. i wanna look pretty too. so envious of the beautiful brides.

attended raymond's wedding end december which serves like a gathering for us. it was really fun. met up with the folks from hall 13 and it feels great getting together. miss their company and miss the times we had in hall.

life is full of dogs and bitches.

those on the road, don't you have any idea that you should signal before you change lane? I think it was included in the basic theory. aunties and uncles, please go revise your BASIC if you had forgotten. i'm juz so irritated by those who doesn't signal. not only it's a basic road courteousy, it's also very hazardous. i would never give way to those who don't signal at all. so stop giving me the stare.

some complacent guy is juz so full of himself after promotion. what's the big deal? stop making stupid comments and think that you can do anything juz coz you're in a different position. life goes on! it juz makes me laugh whenever you fight to be the so-called "most efficient". to think some bitch actually thinks that you are capable. i think nothing of you.

for goodness sake, i don't only service one account, not to mention the many shops that i hafta look after. don't take it for granted that i hafta fulfil your every request. besides, your sell through is minimal. trust me, it doesn't make a difference whether or not you have the dummy handsets. if other shops can sell the models without them and you can't, it juz simply means that your salestalk sux. don't give me that stern and unhappy tone, coz i'm not buying it. you need me more than i need you.

i'm so gonna go crazy if i don't start bitching. sometimes, i really wish everything in this world would go my way. yes... i'm selfish and self-centred. whatever... honestly, i'm not comfortable with the changes that's gonna take place but i don't really have a say in decision-making. sometimes, someone can really be good at putting up great fronts. *sigh* maybe i juz feel challenged? or maybe i juz simply hate that things are gonna get very political. why can't everyone be as simple-minded as me? then i don't hafta start putting on my shield. though i feel that i'm far more competent and capable, i've seen how unscrupulous people can always get to the top. *sigh again* i'm tired enough having to put on a happy face all the time in front of my customers, really don't wish to put up a pretence even when i'm in office. opps! i'm not supposed to say anything. well, i bet none of them reads my blog. maybe i'm juz too used to being the baby and hence hate it when i'm no longer the youngest. *shrug* full of complaints today. quote of the day : xiao mao wouldn't bite if you don't step on her tail. *winks*

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many many things to do for the past 2 weeks and hence many many things to update. wonder where should i start?

FRIENDS
met up with susan about 2 weeks ago. picked her up at tuas (where i nearly got lost) and headed for dinner at holland village sushi tei. guess old habits die hard. *grins* did a hell lot of catching up as the last time we met was when we parted at changi airport after our hong kong trip. that's more than a year ago for your information. sometimes, i do feel guilty that i do not have more time for my friends. if only i have 48 hours a day. really miss hostel life with susan as my neighbour. lots of fun, entertainment and of course, FOOD. dessert was settled at haagen daz. *yummy* ordered a fondue for the both of us. had lunch with ailin yesterday at citylink new york new york. we've been wanting to meet since 2 years ago? glad to know that she's getting married next year. i'm really amazed by how time flies. still remember the times when we made our own supper in hall and the times when we had our extraordinary birthday celebrations. now it's juz work and work and more work everyday. dinner was with AJ team mates at paragon sushi tei. we're forever gossiping when we're together. all thanks to carol, our all-time best informant. we should really set up a blog for her to keep us updated on the recent happenings. i'm sure the readership would be a hit. *laughs* congrats to pp who's gonna tie the knot next year. headed to pp's house for mahjong after a round of drinks at dome.

DARLING
had a huge quarrel with darling last week. i'm glad everything is well now and i hope it would get better. thanks for being such a sweetie by being my chauffeur when baby vios was in the workshop. had dinner with darling at hotstones (boat quay) last thursday. it was meant to be his birthday treat from me. joyce ended up picking up the tab for us. thanks joyce!

WORK
i've gotten pretty familiar with my scope but there're forever many many unforeseen circumstances. some customers are pretty difficult to handle but i'm sure i'll find a way to tame them. *grins* relationship with colleagues as well as superiors are fine at the moment, can be better i suppose. sometimes, i can't help but feel paranoid. guess it's juz me. workload is beginning to pile up and i sometimes wonder if there's a day i can clear all my stuff. *stressed*

i juz hafta grumble. it's been a busy busy day for me at work. though i kinda expected it, i'm still pretty irritated by the fact that i have a million things to do. 1st, lazy me woke up late. it was juz a 5-10 minutes difference and the road is at least 10 times more congested. 2nd, it was the never ending reports that i hafta send. 3rd, it was the boring and very time consuming data cleansing at HQ. 4th, it was the forever last minute rsvp. why do i hafta do everything? MRL really seems like a more appropriate name for the company. *laughs* had a nice and cosy saturday. was supposed to go sentosa but gave up the plan as it was a rainy day. caught jay chou's secret at vivocity. the show is nicer than i thought it would be. think i've become a movie addict, at least one movie every week. *grins* till now, i still have regrets about not buying the fruit marshmallow i saw. *munch munch* headed to cosy bay in the evening to meet up with issac and daniel (darling's new colleague) to catch live soccer. ordered lots and lots of food, especially darling's favourite chicken wings. according to issac, they serve pretty good wings. stayed till around midnight before we headed home. it's gonna be a busy week ahead. very busy.

today is family day! *grins* the last time i caught a movie with my parents was probably 2 years back. watched 881 with them today at bishan. surprisingly, the movie was pretty good and touching. mum actually commented that she would catch it again if not for the costly tickets as compared to "ancient" times. *laughs* been really tired the past month. Many new things to learn and explore in terms of work. Much of my working hours is spent on the road with my baby vios. I've not brought her to the workshop yet as she's my best companion at work. Getting a little stressful as minor hiccups start happening. It's part and parcel of work and i can't really expect things to always be smooth sailing. Juz hope the tough times would be over soon. gonna make some plans for next weekend as darling would be off for 2 days! *smiles* it would be a real treat to look forward to after my long week ahead.

my poor car has been damaged by me! it's juz so upsetting. my baby is less than a week old and this has to happen. gonna hate the multi storey carpark at marine parade. i've got two big dents on the right side of my car, one on the center of the back door with 3 green scratch marks (the wall is green, the unlucky colour) and one at the lower side of the same door with uncountable scratches (paint was scrapped off too). my little white vios is scarred. *pouts* i juz can't help but brood over the accident. wonder why i have to be so near the ugly green wall. darling has advised me to repair the damages only in 2 to 3 months time after i'm more used to the car and traffic conditions. but i juz can't stand the sight of the dents and scratch marks. does anyone wanna fund my repair cost? *grins* life still goes on though my poor baby is injured. still gotta go for shop visits and pretend that everything is fine. this is life. don't really have a choice, do i?

BORED! really hate to see everyone so busy with their own stuff and yet i have nothing concrete to do. *sigh* not that i wish to be busy but i'm running out of websites (related to mobile) to surf everyday. sick and tired of acting busy. juz as i was typing the last sentence, i got myself a small task. *sniggers* pretty excited with my new job scope but yet at the same time worried. though everything is juz as i expected them to be, i'm afraid i wouldn't be able to perform up to standard. i'll be on my own in less than 2 weeks time. praying hard for myself that everything will run smoothly. still anticipating for my new baby to come in. *grins* my little white vios. had trouble applying for the bank loan as i've been with my company for less than 2 years and my previous salary was commission based. hopefully the bid for COE today would be good. gonna be real burdened by this new born but i'm a happy girl. *smiles*

met up with my JC classmates for lunch on saturday. a lot of catching up as i hadn't seen most of them for at least a year. all thanks to my retail hours previously that i couldn't go for most of the gatherings. as usual, many were late and the early birds had our lunch at food republic in wisma. would recommend rojak lovers to try the rojak there. i think it was great. ordered only you tiao for my rojak though and i got a huge portion for 4 bucks. *yum yum* relocated to maestro bistro at cineleisure for dessert. ordered only a lime soda for myself as i desperately need to lose lots of weight. more gossips surfaced during the chit chat session. kinda miss the carefree JC days.

i wanna catch rise of the silver surfer! poor me hafta wait till sunday when darling books out from his ulu camp. *pouts* darling has gone for 12 days of reservist since monday and he's gone outfield for today. i've been video calling him every night and everytime i see him and his silly haircut, i juz wanna laugh. he's been upset with his short hair since saturday but i juz can't help but think that he looks cute. *sniggers* wonder why GV website doesn't reflect the show times for sunday. keeps prompting me that there are no movie sessions listed for this location and i keep getting that for all the locations! is it me or is it the website?

it's been a fruitful saturday. went shopping with darling at marina square. bought 3 pairs of shoes for work from charles and keith. the past week has been quite torturous with my current footwear. i either get blisters on my poor feet or they would be squeezed till they're numb. hopefully the new shoes would be kinder to my feet. *prays hard* darling got me another 2 new tops and a cardigan from those small shops in marina square. silly him insisted on paying for me as i complained that i'm getting poorer. *grins* after the quest in marina, we headed to Suntec. felt bad that darling hafta pay for me and so i tried to refrain myself from looking at anything. however, i juz couldn't resist the temptation. got myself a pair of pants and a pair of skirt from echo. was running late and hence we rushed down to the west to pick up his dad from work. lunch was parmesean cheese pretzel from auntie annes and a you tiao plus curry puff. *yum yum* by the way, i seriously need to lose weight. put on at least 2kg since i was transferred to the HQ. HELP! back to yesterday. headed to darling's home to pass the car to his sister. was feeling lazy and hence we took a bus to the interchange. bought a mushroom and cheese bun and 2 different types of curry buns - my favourite. took a train to jurong point. haven't been there for a long long time. guess the last time i was there was before i moved out of hostel and that's about one year plus back? went TS to search for a nice serial to catch as darling is going for his reservist next week for 10 days and so i'm gonna be left all alone. *sulks* couldn't make up my mind on which serial to buy and hence decided not to spend the money. my eyes juz couldn't stop looking and bought another top plus a cardigan from red2. this time, i paid for the items from my own pocket. *beams* had dinner at the food court. as usual, the place is super packed. after the meal, darling brought me to B1 to do foot reflexology. it really hurts. swear i'm not stepping into such a place in the near future. took a train back and did our rounds at the pasar malam. i'm a glutton, aren't i? got myself 3 potato samosas and darling got himself a chicken wing. it's hard not to put on weight at the rate i'm stuffing food into my stomach. picked up the car and i drove back from darling's place to chomp chomp. it's kinda a routine that we'll go there every night to get dessert for my parents and myself. current craze is strawberry longans. *slurps* really hafta admit that my parking is horrendous. need to perfect it before my car comes in.

sitting in the office as early as eight plus in the morning till noon. set off for a nice lunch with my colleagues before the retail visits. shops that i would visit covers all areas of singapore and it ranges from neighbourhood outlets to operator stores. this has been my routine since last friday. yeaps! i've been promoted to assistant field representative. five day work week, nine to five daily! finally get to enjoy the privileges of going shopping every weekend! fully utilised the previous sunday. went to meet darling for lunch at takashimaya during his break. went to comb the shops on my own after that. bought 4 tops from joop in isetan and that cost me 83 bucks. couldn't resist the temptation of another 2 tops from iora and that made me 78 bucks poorer. total damage done is 161 bucks. i'm a happy ger with a not so happy pocket. *grins* haven't done any real shopping since CNY. it's time for some retail therapy since its the GSS period now. work has been so far so good. the seniors have been nice, giving me good guidance and advice every now and then, especially joyce and ying ying. it's really different from doing sales at the shop front though i have my own clients as well. they're sometimes even more difficult to handle than the consumers and i really hafta be careful of what i say. enjoying eight to five at the moment as i have more time to spend with darling. *smiles* planning to spy on him at the shop every weekend. for the benefit of those who still doesn't know. i've already placed deposit for my vios! hafta wait for the bank to approve my loan and i would be able to get my car by next month! *happiness* wanna get more new shoes and new clothes for work. i'm so gonna be tired of what i have at the moment. it's never enough i guess. thanks to all those who remembered by birthday. thanks for all the wishes and pressies. =)

that's my nintendo DS from darling, the ice blue one. the pink one belongs to my dad. *beams* loving my DS to bits, so is my dad. he'll take out the game to play after work and it wouldn't leave his hands till it's time for bed. knew he would love it. juz downloaded tetris for him. thanks to kenneth that we'll always get new games. *grins*

that's my Louis Vuitton Wallet in Damier Canvas! darling gave it to me on Sunday. it's a birthday plus anniversary pressie. so sweet. love love. he actually saw the picture on my blog early this year, took the picture and went to the shop to get the wallet for me. the azur stock has juz arrived recently. it was a real surprise. i'm a happy and contented girl!

i've been attacked by the virus, the bug called laziness. *grins* went genting early may with darling. issac's leave wasn't approved as the shop is shorthanded. though we lost money at the casino, darling and i truly enjoyed ourselves. took a few rides at the outdoor and indoor theme parks. guess i'm too old for such thrills. *bleah* planned to go snowland as well but in the end, contributed our admission tickets to the casino. though it was freezing, really wish singapore's weather would be as cooling. didn't find anything worth buying except a few key rings for darling's good friends. the trip was solely for us to rest and relax.

planning to get a car before july, before the GST hike. though i really hafta tighten my belt but it's a must that i get the car. it's my dream right from the beginning. juz that i hafta settle for a much cheaper one now as finance wouldn't allow me to get anything close to my LEXUS! *sigh* but like darling mentioned, it's a good start (hopefully). having mixed feelings. excited but yet worried that i might not be able to cope. nevertheless, i hafta take the 1st step. any suggestions on the car model? deciding between toyota vios or honda fit. am open to other choices as well, especially if it would help me to save cost. *smiles* thanks darling for helping to gather all the information. know you're worried about me on the road, promise i'll be a safety driver and practise more before i get the car. sorry mum and dad that your allowance will hafta be cut as i need to support the car now. looking forward to getting the car.

know i haven been faithfully updating my blog. reason is simple: busi-ness. *grins* busy with having to do stupid reports on a daily basis. busy adapting to changes around me. busy playing games on my DS! busy recovering from my cough. busy collecting doraemon magnets: trying very hard to think of what is needed at home from 7-eleven. busy keeping darling accompany. hardly have time for myself till today. really need a break. planning a short getaway trip early may i suppose. was deciding between genting and cruise. the former is chosen so as to save money. well, i wonder if it's the correct decision. in any case, know i'm gonna enjoy myself as darling's gonna be with me. *smiles* issac will be joining us and will probably be getting brendan along too. it's gonna be fun. DS is so gonna be my best travel mate to genting as it's gonna keep me company throughout the long coach journey. how i wish we could travel by air. really hate long bus journeys. not to worry though. i'm gonna have my DS with me! *laughs* i'm juz so crazy over DS now. and guess what? i've decided not to get a camcorder for my dad but get him a DS instead. main reason: wanna get a good camcorder which is better than what he has at present, but those would definitely range from 1k above. however, considering the fact that he doesn't use it more than 10 times a year, it's not that worth the money. besides, my dad's like a kid. always planting himself in front of the PC to play games after work. so probably he would appreciate owning a DS. i'm a filial daughter, aren't i? already made plans to actually acquire 2 more. 1 for dad for his birthday and 1 for mum for mother's day. they can then play versus. *grins* great idea right? so proud of myself. gotta stop here and go catch some drama on tv. been a long time since i have the luxury to do that. will be back for more updates.

to little nina: been nice working with you the past two months. please take good care of yourself in the new outlet. i'm sure you'll be able to adapt to the new environment in no time. i'll still be a phone call away if you need any help, any kind of help. you'll be badly missed. *hugs*

been a real busy week for me. TUESDAY: my only off day of the week was packed. met gracie for lunch at changing appetite (marina square). the reason why i chose the place was coz all their cheesecakes are at 50% on tuesdays! ordered a pizza for main coz i've been craving for one since god knows when. but guess what? it wasn't available! juz my luck. ended up having pasta again. dessert was great though. an ultimate chocolate cheesecake and a rum raisin cheesecake. *drools* chatted with gracie and almost forgot the time. it's really a headache when you're caught between 2 job offers. ger, go for what you really want. no matter what your decision is, i believe you'll do well. headed down town to pick up darling. went daniel yan to get my dress for dinner and dance. spent more time than expected to choose a suitable dress. i hafta admit that black is boring but elegant. in the end, i chose a off-white short bubble dress. looks pretty cute in it. *laughs* yes, that's what i want. something different from the rest. headed back to darling's place to get the car and went back home to fetch my parents out for dinner. met up with my aunt and family. it's kinda a tradition that we always have a meal to celebrate the january babies (my mum, my aunt and my niece) birthdays. dined at lingzhi vegetarian restaurant at far east square. had steamboat buffet. felt really fat after the meal. sent my parents home and headed to steven's house with darling. played 3 rounds of mahjong with issac, joseph and steven's dad. ducky says that he's tired and didn't wanna play. got his dad to stand in for him. hafta thank my lucky stars that i actually won that night. *grins* all thanks to all the gang and ga i had. WEDNESDAY: company's dinner and dance at padang. weird place to hold a formal function? i certainly shared the same thoughts. in fact, the place is now open to public till 16th April :: Crystal Mirror :: tickets are pretty costly. they serve french cuisine or should i say lousy and cold french cuisine. the perfomances are great and entertaining but that still does not make the tickets worthwhile. loved the settings and ambience. however, it was a little warm that night. they serve nice red wine though. it's a pity that only a minority of the field force team was invited. to be honest, it was one of the worst dinner function i've ever attended. SATURDAY: darling's sis's big day. got up early in the morning. there wasn't much for me to help but i couldn't possibly sleep in when the rest of the family are there in the house. sis wanted to keep everything simple. juz the usual prayers and tea ceremony. took a short nap in the afternoon and headed for buffet dinner at sis's new home in punggol. i swear i'm never ever gonna move there. though the buildings look beautiful from the outside, the flats are really small. plus the place is really secluded and seems pretty unsafe to me, especially in the night. darling sent me home after a short gambling session.

darling gave me a surprise when he turned up at my doorstep at midnight. gave me a bigger surprise with the gift he brought along. yes! i finally got my Nintendo DS Lite! *smiles* got it in ice blue colour as i didn't have a choice. though it's not in pink, i love it all the same. all thanks to darling who used his motor rewards to redeem the DS for me, sacrificed his PSP. *big big hug* my darling's forever so sweet. gonna sms kenneth the 1st thing tomorrow to get him help me with the memory card and games. *grins* so exciting.

lOving 7-eleven :: lOving dOraemOn

hate repeating myself but i really HATE stupid customers. if you buy a phone, please DO NOT take it for granted that we hafta transfer your stupid contacts for you. i'm sorry, but it's a SERVICE that i'm doing and NOT OBLIGATION. i've been and i'll be a really nice girl if you had bought the phone from me. would try my best to do a data transfer even if it's very troublesome (like certain samsung models which you hafta copy the contacts one by one). but you hadn't got it from me, or in the worst case scenario, from other shops, DON'T expect me to always be obliging and DON'T ever give me the stupid face when you're rejected. 1stly, if you dunno how to transfer the contacts, ask the sales person who's selling you the phone to do for you, that's the most basic. most common reasons (or excuses): they very busy, queue very long, alot of people, cannot do. so what makes you think i'm very free? i have my own customers to take care of as well. besides, i'm not gonna be responsible if any of your contact numbers go missing. that's beside the point. 2ndly, if you dunno how to use the phone, don't buy! what for buy such a good phone when you don't even know how to do the most basic of all? yes, transferring contacts is the most BASIC? so what if you had gotten the phone from my colleague? was it my fault that contacts weren't transferred? what makes you think i should have helped you? irritating bitch. when i saw you again today, i knew why i wouldn't have helped you in the 1st place (though i can't even remember you at all). yes, that's how INSIGNIFICANT you are. sometimes, if you had gotten me at the correct times (when the shop's not so busy), i would gladly help. bonus for those nice aunties and uncles who need help. i admit that attitude plays a big part too. if you give me lousy attitude, you can FORGET about me giving you good service. trust me, i've NEVER believed that customers are always right and i NEVER will. this phrase has made many consumers in singapore going overboard, complaining over every little thing. SHAME on you!

it's been a bad day for me and for darling too. poor him still stuck at work place. shant elaborate what happened and for your information, he's the reason why i'm still up. as for myself, it wasn't really the customers that have gotten me upset today. customers have been really kind to me. apart from the bitch who turned up in the shop this afternoon, others have been really nice. i should be happy. what brought my day down is probably an incident that happened around evening. think i'm really getting old. memory's failing me. for the past year, i've never committed such a mistake. today have gotta be my 'lucky' day. i'm still puzzled over why it happened and how it could have happened. gotta be more alert from now. *sigh* i'm juz such a scatterbrain. so affected by it though it's not a really big issue.

izzit me? or izzit them? i have no idea. blame it on generation gap? different backgrounds? or the real reason could be i simply cannot stand bimbos? *shrug* i would never have imagined getting more than 20 points for my 'O' levels, let alone say 40 plus. i'm talking about L1R5 not L1R4. pardon me friends, for i know 'O' is such a long time ago. i'm a proud 9 pointer with 6 distinctions. surprised? *laughs* its not that i look down on people who doesn't have good academic results. those grades don't mean anything. for those who know me, you'll know what i mean. i do admire people who didn't do well in school but who are good in character, especially those who are doing well in society as well as at work. you have my respect. but if you aren't intellectual, at least try not to be bimbotic? it's really sickening. i'm not the only one who thinks that you girls behave like bimbos. at least i know it's not a biased statement. maybe it's a wrong word to use as i don't think you are pretty enough to be labelled as one. probably brainless is more appropriate. i don't care if you think i'm fierce or unfriendly, cause your comments don't bother me. i'll be nice to you if you're nice to me. that's my principle. if you find that you don't need me, i don't need you either. don't ever cross my path or tread on my toes. that's my final warning to you.

Valentines Day
received my pressie a few days in advance. darling had sacrificed his lunch break to search for it :: ring from citigems :: *beams* that's my new love now. wearing it everyday but so afraid that i might lose it knowing how unfated i am with rings. i'm still upset over the blink blink that went missing 2 years back. *pouts* i'll take very good care of this purple stone. went to work earlier than usual as darling had promised to bring me out for dinner. he's been tight-lipped about where he's gonna bring me to. *anticipation* it was yet another boring day at work, same old questions and same old problems. juz so sick of it. i'm glad i have darling's dinner date to look forward to. was standing at the door when i saw a girl holding a bouquet of flowers walking in the shop's direction. juz as i was wondering who the flowers were meant for, the girl asked me for catherine. *surprised* happily acknowledged the receipt. lovely red roses. shouldn't have spent the money. but i really love them. *smiles* happiness is the only word when the clock turned 1800. finally time to knock off. the only hiccup of the day was probably the stupid jam. waited almost an hour for darling and when i got onto the car, he still didn't wanna tell me where we're heading. however, as he's unsure of the route, he had no choice but to tell me our destination :: SENTOSA :: due to the heavy traffic, we took about 45 mins to get from tampines to sentosa. by the time we reached the place, we had only an hour left for dinner. nevertheless, i loved the arrangement. had our dinner at sea village restaurant, a restaurant by the sea. though the food wasn't great, i loved the ambience and beautiful scenery. went for a short walk at the rhymes of blooms. need to digest the huge amount of food i took. *grins* the decorations were pretty. the last surprise of the day was the mahjong session that darling had arranged with issac and steven. as brendan couldn't make it, we had joseph to make up the last leg. though we lost in the end, i enjoyed my valentines day with darling. he' s juz so sweet. knowing what i want all the time.

Chinese New Year
had a pre-CNY mahjong session with brendan, issac and steven on the eve of CNY eve. as all of us (minus issac) doesn't have to work on the eve, we played all the way till 8 in the morning. poor issac had to go to work straight after the session. *grins* we're juz so evil. headed back to darling's place for a short rest and went down town to meet my NTU NBS friends at noon. as expected, many couldn't make it at the last minute. had our lunch at orchard cineleisure's pasta mania. 1st topic over lunch was of coz gracie's upcoming wedding next year. others include complaints of work, discussion on future plans and reminiscing the past. really miss those days in school. went to adrian's place for another mahjong session with xuanru after lunch. darling went off to play billard with his friends. been a long time since i stepped into adrian's place. played till around 6 in the evening and adrian sent me home for my reunion dinner. rest of the evening was spent on prayers, watching new year variety on TV and steamboat.
1st day of CNY: went to gu-ma's place to bai-nian. nothing interesting. cousins were asking when i'm getting married and my older nephews are forever trying to get on my nerves by calling me auntie. stayed there for around an hour and headed home to offer prayers. darling came over to fetch us to yew ting cousin's place at holland. nice 2 and 1/2 storey house. love the architecture but somehow, i feel that alot of space were not utilised. spent the whole evening there chit-chatting and munching on goodies. can't imagine how much weight i'm gonna put on. went home with my parents around 8 plus and darling picked me up from home at around 9 plus. lots of changes in plans all cause of steven and finally we set it to be gamble session at his place. started really late (around midnight), all thanks to steven who made us waited for him to leave his other "gamble den" for almost an hour. played blackjack from midnight till 7 in the morning. really amazed by how gambling brings people together. mark, kenneth and me from nokia, darling, issac and carey from singtel and steven (plus girlfriend) from active8. darling and steven were really crazy. placing stakes of up to 400 bucks on every hand. *madness* at one point in time, darling had a deficit of 2.3k. was really quite worried for him. really glad when he broke even and in the end he even won. *smiles* great luck to start the new year. sent the rest of the guys back (except for carey who went off on his own).
2nd day of CNY: slept for a few hours and i had to wake up to go visiting. took a cab down to darling's place. uncle sent me to crescent when i told him to go avenue 2 and ended up having to make a detour. the fare came up to be more than 20 bucks! but nice uncle knew that it was his mistake and ask for only 16. gave him 18 for good luck. stayed at darling's house for a while and we headed to his ah-ma's place. ate lots of cashew nuts (my favourite) and gummies! *fat fat* left the place around 4 and we went to pick up issac to go to steven's chalet at east coast. bought fries from mac to munch and issac got himself a sundae. refrained from getting one for myself as i know i'm so gonna get fat. played a few rounds of blackjack with steven and his colleagues. this time, they were more sane. stakes were kept at a maximum of 30 bucks. left the place around 8 plus with darling and issac to go visiting at huimin's (one of darling's managers) house. met up with the rest of the staff at her place. simply couldn't resist the temptation of those CNY goodies, same goes for darling. *laughs* they told me to keep an eye on him as he has put on alot of weight already. poor boy. kept being picked on for eating non-stop. left the place around 9 plus and we headed back to east coast. packed our dinner from burger king drive through. *yum yum* darling's luck was really good this new year. he won yet again for the night. as darling had to work the next day, we left the place at around 1 in the morning.
3rd day of CNY: rotted at home the whole day. did nothing except watching TV and filling my stomach with goodies. took a short nap and went down town to pick darling up from work. after getting the car from home, we went to jurong east's NTUC to pick up some groceries. headed home and prepared ai xin dinner for darling. *beams* food wasn't fantastic but it's the thought that counts. borrowed que sheng 3 dvd from steven and we caught it that night. wasn't that nice as compared to the previous 2 episodes. time really flies. 4 days of holidays juz passed in the blink of the eye. really dread going back to work but am glad that my 1st day will be at parkway, makes life a little happier.

sometimes i ask myself. what do i really want from the company? promotion? recognition? honestly, if the promotion means little monetary returns (pathetic would be more appropriate) and more shit jobs, i would rather stay at where i am. i'm pretty much happy with what i have right now, getting along well with colleagues from the retail side and on top of that nice bosses. what more can i ask for? not that i would reject a promotion, but i'm looking forward to a higher post than SSC. say i'm greedy, but who's not? i really hate pretenders. people who keeps saying that they do not care about such promotion but their actions prove otherwise. little actions and words to the superior. i hate that. if you really don't care then don't try to earn credits at the expense of others. observation one: claiming all the credits during training, trying hard to prove oneself's capability. obeservation two: hinting to superiors that him/herself should get the recognition award. so what if you had lost out to someone last year due to your sales though you were supposed to get it for your performance? admit it, you're juz not as good. somehow, i juz feel that it's pretty unfair. does it mean that if your superior is more aggressive, you'll be able to get the award? i definitely feel he's not worthy to clinch the title. well, if i'm the one who's gonna take it, there're people who's gonna say the same thing. everyone has got different working environment. how do you judge his performance? by attendance? by what the managers say? for sales, it's a concrete thing. target says everything. but for performance wise, there's always a grey area, what the superior doesn't see or know is not taken into account. so does it mean that if you do enough "performance" during monthly meeting and trainings, you'll get the award? i'm probably too comfortable in the comfort zone that i tend to resist any slight changes, not to mention major changes. what shall my next step be?

mambo jumbo at zouk on CNY eve! i wanna go! it's been a really long time since i've been there. will i be able to make it? i wonder... in a really bad shape now. down with flu, cough and sorethroat. wanna get well before the festive season starts. hopefully i'll get a chance to go clubbing. sometimes i really wonder what the upper management is thinking about. yes, i'm gonna complain about work again. honestly, if you're looking for long term staff, would you hire a bunch of 'O' level grads? at a time like this, i don't think this group of young girls would be satisfied with juz a 'O' level cert. give them half a year, i'm quite sure they'll resign and move on with further studies. what's the point then? waste a huge sum of money to train them, put them through courses and after 6 months they leave. the cycle goes on. i understand that the company is rich but that's not the way to waste resources. even if you wanna to widen the age group of staff, you hafta search for suitable candidates and not juz pick any ah hua or ah lian. in addition, there seems to be double standard towards the new girls. so what if you're on probation? so what if you hadn't got the proper attire? isn't it the norm to get yourself proper attire and not to say that coz you're still on probation and it's okie not to follow the rules? sounds ridiculous? i really wish to see things from the company's point of view. i'm trying hard to. the consolation is, there's 1 out of 3 of the new girls who's positive towards learning and better in attitude. maybe it's generation gap. can't seem to communicate with them. catherine is getting old.

all i want for new year is...

LV Koala Wallet in Damier canvas (Azur) - it's been a long time since i last changed a wallet. guess it was about 4 years ago. really love the koala wallet in damier canvas. very unique. it's a new design. nice nice. gonna get it after chinese new year. *praying hard*

Fujitsu LifeBook S6311 - i should be contented with my IBM ThinkPad. juz can't help but wish to get a Fujitsu. it's juz so sleek and beautiful. plus it has got bluetooth capability which my IBM doesn't and an additional USB port. most importantly, it's much lighter. only about 1.7kg. can't wait to lay my hands on it.

Nintendo DS Lite Coral Pink - been thinking about it since the KL trip. juz wondering when can i afford the time to play. my mum and dad gonna be the ones fighting over it i suppose. *laughs* i don't need it but i guess the colour attracted me, plus the fact that darling will be kept entertained when i'm playing mahjong. should i or should i not?

Papillio Madrid Silk Flowers Pink - bought the madrid folklore rose instead coz the silk flowers pink is twice the price. 130 bucks for a pair of sandals. that's pretty crazy. i'm still thinking about it though. it's really pretty. wanna have a pair of my own. i'm a greedy little girl. anyone wanna place an order? *evil grins*