heartless, i honestly think i am. who would have broken up with your other half on the eve of valentines' day except me? sorry for the hurt i've brought upon you but i have no idea how else would i have the courage to do so. i feel i'm being devoured by guilt more than anything else. you've been really nice to me and you are more than what i could have ask for. but i guess marriage does not only involve the 2 of us. there're juz too many other factors to consider. the cause of our breakup is not what you deem it to be. at this point of time, i suppose you would not take any explanation but i really hope you would listen one day.

my life is back to normal - clubbing and mahjong. think i'll age really fast at the rate i'm depreciating my sleep. well, at least i feel more at ease and relieved. work is still never ending (growing exponentially in fact). there's supposed to be an increase in headcount to lighten our load. but it seems like there aren't any suitable candidates. *sigh* guess i gotta work my way through till the new guy comes in. realised that i miss mahjong-ing with adrian and peeps so badly. enjoyed myself throughout the whole night. xuanru: you owe me one big one wor! when you gonna jio me play mahjong? *bleah* can't believe that i still love clubbing as much as i did. *laughs* though i'm getting on in age, i could still dance the night away like there's no tomorrow. bumped into min at mambo last night and she juz couldn't stop laughing. miss the good old days.

my mind's been actively thinking of a statement someone made regarding myself. "you make a good girlfriend but not a good wife". what does that imply? there're many many ways of looking at it. of coz being me, i would think of it positively. but i guess he meant otherwise. at that point, it was like "ouch". maybe that's what they call retribution? if you ask, i do regret the decision i made 6 years back. though i felt it was for a good cause, he definitely did not share the same sentiments. wanted to feel better by talking things out, but ended up with more doubts hanging in my mind. my dear (if you're reading): you still owe me a 3 sms long answer! *grins*