izzit the lack of sleep? my swollen eye? or pms? maybe it's a mixture of everything. i've been really easily irritated and it's kinda affected my work. attitude towards certain customers was bad, especially when they had no intentions of purchase. i know this shouldn't be the case, but i juz can't help it. adding on to my frustration is the fact that i can never knock off at 830. the crowd at parkway always choose to come in at this time. maybe it's true that customers have already arranged to come in juz as i was about to leave. seriously, i wouldn't mind staying back to help out if they're really shorthanded. what i don't understand is why handle so many customers on your own when there're other colleauges around? is that one or two more commission so important? in the end, you might juz end up with nothing at all. should have utilised my mc on monday. perhaps my eye wouldn't be in the state it's in right now. can hardly open my eye. decided to give up my weekend off again to rest at home. realised that it doesn't really pay to be good at times.

a regular customer walked in on monday to purchase a handset with a 1000 note. as it was the 1st deal of the day, we didn't have enough change for him. he left with the phone and said he'll come back for his change later. he came back on tuesday saying that he wanna exchange the phone he bought for a even higher end one claiming that the lady with him didn't like the design. it wasn't our policy to do exchange and he got a new handset without the exchange without a word of complain! i've been wondering which line he's in. *grins* was telling my colleagues that i wouldn't mind being his mistress and all of them had the same reaction. told me to stop dreaming. maybe he would mind? i wouldn't even stand a chance. can't you guys be more confident of me? *hmph* can't blame them though. guess the odds are against me with how i look with my swollen eye now. *pouts*

been more than a week since i met you. miss you lots. busy period again with lots of meetings. sorry but i'm beginning to lose faith. i'm starting to question if it's the truth you were speaking when you said you're attached though you claimed it to be a joke. it's not about trust but more of self-confidence. this was one of the reason why i chose to 'disappear' back then. i really wouldn't know what to do if that's the case now. perhaps i wouldn't even have the choice. wonder why but each time i fall in love with someone, the person juz seems to be less nice to me. others around juz seem to care more for me in comparison. probably it's me. higher expectations i suppose. don't blame you for being busy. i know how important the business is to you and i know the consequences. maybe it's juz not meant to be. *shrug* you know how i hate it when you say that i've got other choices? it hurts. but you juz keep doing it. wonder how can i let you know how i feel.