i've not shed a tear since the day we sent you off on your final journey five months ago. deep inside me, i'm missing you badly. besides mum and dad, you cared for me the most. weekends are never the same without you coming over to visit. februarys are never the same without you around to celebrate mum's, elena's and your birthdays. i've been refusing to touch on this topic, for i know it'll bring back too much memories. it's been five months of escaping from reality, refusing to face up to it. i wish i had held on to your hand longer that night, even juz a moment longer. i wish i had not said goodbye that night, if i knew it's gonna be your last to me. thanks for the advance wedding gift you prepared, i'll keep it in good condition till the day comes.

好想念你。。。