can't let go of the past? maybe. was reading through past entries of someone's blog. *laughs* i've got loads of things to complete at work but i juz can't be bothered. it's a thursday! whoever works on a thursday?! *grins* back to the blog that i was reading. realised at some point of time, i seemed to be the most frequently mentioned person. yes, it doesn't mean anything but i juz can't believe how 2 supposedly good friends can end up not talking at all, especially at this age. i do treasure the friendship and in fact, i was pretty upset at how things turned out. i guess there can never be 100% platonic friendship between a guy and a ger. honestly, there must be some level of interests or attractions somehow. at this point, i juz feel i've lost a good friend.

juz can't believe how i time and again land myself in such situations. i always doubt his words but yet it seems convincing at times. there's definitely the trust issue between us which i believe can never be resolved. he says its juz him and i say i juz dun mean enough to him. i wanted to stop talking to him and stop seeing him at all in order to get out of this shit. yes, it is a childish decision and it's almost impossible to do so. i do treasure him and our friendship much more after the "fateful" incident. he means more to me than i thought. i definitely do not wish for history to repeat. at least, i want us to be able to sit down for coffee 5 or 10 years down the road just like any other friends. i wish...