*tired* but wanna leave a post here in case you checked out the blog after work and wanna read something. didn't wanna disappoint you. felt kinda happy but i know it's only the beginning. got lots more work to do. motivated but yet am stressed yet again coz i really wanna see results. thanks for all the help and encouragement. most importantly, for not giving up on me all these while. juz a little secret (not anymore after i declare *bleah*) that i wanna share. was so reluctant to let go of your hand juz now (if you remember when). juz so tempted to keep holding on. *sigh* the very reason why i hesitated when you held out your hand. i knew i would melt. this is juz too scary coz i know i'm so gonna get hurt if anything goes wrong. is this juz an illusion? *shrug* to all those in mambo. sorry that i haven't been going but i've got important stuff to do. till i've got more time ya. promise i'll be there. it's another working day tomorrow. how upsetting. every single day at work, i juz pray for time to pass faster not that i hate my job. but juz for the very fact that i can see him after work. i'm juz so silly aren't i? guess my reason's becoming stronger. is that good or bad? i've absolutely no idea.