much as i don't feel like blogging, i'm still here right now. like my msn nick, i feel like i've gone back to the past. which past you would ask. *shrug* it's pains to see your love one being troubled but it hurts more when he doesn't share his unhappiness. you said you don't wanna affect me. but have it ever come across to you that i'm already affected seeing you so down yet i have no idea why. you asked if i had anything to say. i do. in fact, there're lots of questions i wanna ask. but i know it's only gonna add to your burden so i chose to keep quiet. sorry if i made you stressed. guess i wasn't feeling too good either. reason? i dunno. been feeling down since saturday night. missing you. *sigh* wonder if i should let you know i've blogged. should i?