juz got home from a mahjong session at adrian's house. guess it's really not my year. been losing money at all gambling attempts. wonder if the saying "qing chang de yi du chang shi yi" is true. can't i be greedy and have the best of both worlds? besides, my love life isn't that smooth either. *bleah* nevertheless, it was an enjoyable night. credits to xuanru. *grins* special thanks for the "ba wan" u hit to me during the last round. know you can't wait to get home to be on the phone with your wife. in a pretty confused state right now. been like this since last night in fact. kept asking myself what exactly do i want to achieve in life? my dreams were pretty materialistic prior to last night and i suppose i need to do some readjustment. *sigh* till now, i've still got no answer to my question. valentines' day is juz 3 days away. plans? yes i do. family dinner. no one believes but it's true. reserved a table for 10. wanted to ask that someone if he's interested to join me but i haven't got a chance to and recent events make it seems like i'm gonna get turned down. really sick of facing rejections. and i don't want to face another, especially a rejection like this. it's so gonna kill me. got reprimanded for foretelling the chances but i'm pretty sure of my intuition. *shrug* what should i do? many other questions which i wanna ask but when will i have the chance to?