2010年1月5日 没有王仕捷的第五十五天

there're juz too much emotions running through me, i've no idea how to put them down at all. i wish i have an outlet to release all that i've been keeping inside me.

2009年12月31日 没有王仕捷的第五十天

i've crashed. life seems to have come to a standstill. i should have woken up from this dream earlier. i know what i have to do and what is best for me - move on, but i clearly do not wish to do so. things were made clear right from the start and his stand on our relationship has never changed. i'm juz so wrong in thinking that i could change this fact, or rather, i started to believe that i succeeded which is so not true. i brought this upon myself. much as i want to take a step back and plan for the road ahead, i juz can't bring myself to give him up.

2009年12月30日 没有王仕捷的第四十九天

I miss Hong Kong;
Miss my favourite yummy egg tarts;
Miss the shopping;
Miss not having to work;
Miss him being by my side every morning when i wake up;
Miss the breakfast he prepares;
Miss waiting for him to get off work;
Miss spending time with him;
I miss HIM...

2009年12月29日 没有王仕捷的第四十八天

爱心早餐

表面上装得再坚强，也无法抹掉心中的不舍得。

在过去的七天，我找到了幸福。

能和喜欢的人同住一个屋檐下，一起生活，真的好开心。

他是否有在挂念着我？

分隔两地的滋味真不好受。

2009年12月20日 没有王仕捷的第三十九天

从台湾回来之后，心总觉得有点不踏实。
虽然再过两天就是我所期待已久的香港之旅，但我开始有点迟疑。
担心我们之间有所改变，担心我们不能像从前一样。
或许是我多疑，但我真的无法平服我的心情。

2009年12月8日 没有王仕捷的第二十七天

people change, and so do relationships. i juz wish ours wouldn't.

2009年12月7日 没有王仕捷的第二十六天

好想知道他的近况。
好想拨通电话，听听他的声音。
好想能马上飞到他的身边。
好想知道他是否也有想念我。

mum and dad came home with them on saturday. the red one is called 红龟果 and the yellow one is called 金钱龟. i chose to keep 金钱龟 as it matches my wall colour. they brighten up the dark room with moon and stars in the night, really lovely. it's a pity i couldn't get an image of it to upload.

2009年12月2日 没有王仕捷的第二十一天

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你
我很不服气也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽停在这里

2009年11月28日 没有王仕捷的第十七天

The Girls

The Thorn

it's been a while since we had a gathering and i finally met up with my JC team-mates cum gossip-mates. janice, PP plus hubby and i mahjong-ed one and three quarter rounds at the couple's house before heading to timbre as planned. did not finish the game as we were running late for our reservation. tho it's a pity that many could not join us, we had our utmost fun throughout the day and night. as usual, janice and boon tong are forever squabbling for no reason and provided much entertainment for the rest. delicious pizza and yummy tapas plus good company, what more can i ask for? the night ended with supper at geylang G7. *beams*

在过去的一年里，你似乎已成为我生命的一部分。
没了你的陪伴，生活仿佛缺少了些什么。
就算只是经过我们常去的地方，你就会出现在我脑海。
或许我已戒不掉你这个习惯。。。

p.s. wednesday's mambo was fantastic!

2009年11月23日 没有王仕捷的第十二天

was watching mediacorp drama serial on channel 8. coincidentally, one of the guys in the show is named jay. decided to drop him a text on his prepaid number. really hope i've not been a bother the past week. though he doesn't reply most of the time, i juz want him to know that i'm here thinking of him.

2009年11月19日 没有王仕捷的第八天

using competitors' products

for once, i have to agree with the management. it isn't right to use competitors' products during working hours. however, below are debatable points regarding this issue.

1. if the company doesn't carry a certain product, it would be fine to use competitors'?
2. promoters are not issued with the latest products to use as demo devices, carrying outdated handsets doesn't serve much purpose, does it? if promoters have to buy their own handsets for personal use, i don't see why they can't get competitors'.
3. it would be good to hands-on rather than just going through training after training (ie. brainwashing) how good our own products are as compared to competitors'. it is easier to convince consumers that our products are more superior if you had used competitors' and made a comparison. using competitors' products doesn't deminish our confidence we have for our own! if i sell fish soup and i try out other stalls, it doesn't mean that i think my fish soup is not good, it simply means i want to try how others' fish soup taste.

dedicated to my SCs...

无论再多的节目，无论再忙，我还是无法不想他。
时间仿佛慢了下来， 使我终于明白度日如年的感觉。

2009年11月15日 没有王仕捷的第四天

心情好比天气一样，是阴霾的。
很努力把每天的时间表排得满满的，一心不让自己有多余的时间胡思乱想。
时间一天一天地过，我对他的想念一天一天地加深。

2009年11月12日 没有王仕捷的第一天

我最不期待的今天终于到了。
他，在一个小时前乘搭飞机离开了。

内心挣扎了好久。
但因为害怕，我始终没到机场去。
害怕会不经意地落泪，更害怕会碰到不想知道的真相。

虽然朋友都说，六个星期的时间一眨眼就会过去，我还是无法说服自己。
真希望时间能够快一些， 真希望因分开的想念能够少一些。

Yager Bomb

last night's music was superb! tony and byden spinned many of the regulars' favourites which haven't been heard for a long time. it's probably one of the mambos which the percentage of time spent on the dance floor compared to at wine bar is the highest. *grins* despite the fact that i totally enjoyed dancing to the songs and had fun through the night, i was pretty upset as it was his farewell.

him: so i'll see you in hong kong.
me: *pushes away from his hug in shock* don't want!
him: you don't wanna go anymore?
me: that's like so far away. i'm gonna miss you.
him: it's only a month.

how is 22nd december a month away from now?! *speechless*

What is the real purpose of a team building trip? I'm under the impression that it is to foster stronger bonds through activities.
1. I do not think that wasting time travelling by coach would in any way achieve the goal. Not as if people are gonna communicate much during the journey. Not as if there're gonna be any interactive games (only games people play would be on their psp, ds lite or iTouch) carried out on the coach. Majority would be engaged in the activity callled sleeping. Why can't we be more time efficient and travel by flight? Time = money isn't it?
2. After travelling for 6 hours (ONE way), the activities we gonna do can be carried out on siloso beach, or even east coast park at that. How not interesting? If the so-called team building activities are bound to the location, it gives one less reason for this argument.
3. This is personal. I don't want to go KL! There's nothing worth to shop, no scenic views! What's left is only a lousy, run-down and under-maintained theme park! What's the catch?

the clock is ticking and my heart is sinking. the day is approaching too soon. never thought it would be this fast. too many farewell lunches and dinners to have time for me. guess i've been too busy to have taken notice of the time that was slipping through. i'm not sure of the road ahead. the future is uncertain, at least mine is. this process is juz too painful, too much for me to bear.

Happy Birthday Shirleen dear!
juz wanna let you know that you're badly missed. have a great time wherever you are! glad you managed to solve the issue. enjoy!

Like a Prayer

I should be so Lucky

Teaching Segment

Co-instructor, Jay

The Mambo Regulars

it was a wonderful performance on wednesday. thanks to all who came down to support. i truly enjoyed the whole show despite being physically and mentally drained. the response we got from everyone made up for it. all the time and effort put in over the past 5 months have paid off. based on esplanade's count, there were over 1000 in the audience with 800 engaged. i'm really proud of the whole team. been a great experience working with all of you. the show would not have been possible (not to mention a success *beams*) if not for each and every of your commitment. for the benefit of those who missed the performance, here is the link to our finale item. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtxNEpGLfBc

this is what i've been burning my weekends for over the past 4 months. *beams* i'm glad everything is falling in place as planned and the show will be up and running on the 28 October at the Esplanade Forecourt.

it's been a great experience for me. from forming the team, getting everyone together, fitting into each others' schedule, choosing the performance songs, standardising and even coming up with our very own creation for the moves, choreographing our own mixes and to the costumes selection. each and every single one of us had contributed to the above to have made this show possible. nothing comes easy. we went through bad times but i'm sure all of us learnt something from them.

apologies for my multiple tantrums (most of the time, if not all) and thank you for putting up with it. i believe the team has built a bond amongst us unknowingly and we have definitely grown closer together. all the fun, laughter and sweat we had at smu (sometimes nus and once sph) will always be remembered.

thank you chock for mixing our sets. thank you ben who is always sourcing for our practice venue in smu. thank you kes for always being there to give us your advice and support. thank you everyone for taking time off from your busy schedule to make it for training. it's the final lap, 10 days to actual performance and 3 more practice sessions. you have made it possible and you will make it a success!

there is always two sides to a coin. we cannot change how others think, we can only prove them wrong.

facebook is a gauge of work efficiency. the more time you have for it, the more efficient you are. seriously, i do not see any issues with logging on to facebook during working hours. condition is, deadline met. so long as work is done on time, why can't people facebook in office? honestly, who is more appreciated? staff who can't even complete simple tasks and act busy in office or staff who are competent but on facebook all the time? if people can be surfing non-work related websites in office, why is facebook the exception? it's a pointless debate.