2009年12月31日 没有王仕捷的第五十天

i've crashed. life seems to have come to a standstill. i should have woken up from this dream earlier. i know what i have to do and what is best for me - move on, but i clearly do not wish to do so. things were made clear right from the start and his stand on our relationship has never changed. i'm juz so wrong in thinking that i could change this fact, or rather, i started to believe that i succeeded which is so not true. i brought this upon myself. much as i want to take a step back and plan for the road ahead, i juz can't bring myself to give him up.