2011年5月19日 没有王仕捷的第五百五十四天

Universal Studios Singapore - 14 May

had a mini gathering to celebrate PP's and my birthdays. though it was my 3rd visit to the theme park, i had an awesome day! it's definitely the company that matters. took my maiden ride on the battlestar galactica. cylon was a little disappointing but human made up for it. gonna challenge myself to take the 1st row seats on human next friday. nothing beats a great dinner at the hotel room after a long but fun-filled day. cheese, ham, focaccia bread and wine = perfection!

Happy Things =)

thanks to hazel for sharing this pretty yellow dress from warehouse. i couldn't resist the temptation. total damage = SGD289. so wanna get the same dress in bright red but the last piece was a size 6 (which i unfortunately can't fit into). contemplating to get the fitted halter dress in cherteuse as well. i'm a sucker for dresses. =P

Mambo - 18 May


to welcome PQ and royston back and farewell for chu kok loong, we had a bottles night! moet, white wine, red wine, belvedere and vodka = madness. totally enjoyed dancing to djB's set. his new mix for mambo never fails to surprise us and brought life back to the dance floor. all 6 of us were high and it was ultimate fun and funny. in the midst of the chaos, i realised i 'lost' my BB and was whining about it. while buddy ben tried to console me, to everyone's horror, i took out the BB from my pocket and started texting as if nothing was wrong. ben and PQ gave me the look. i was laughing so hard as we recalled the incident. towards the end of the night, PQ and me attempted to affirm chu kok loong's sexuality. he had zero reaction when we tried to dance with him! how hurtful!

can't remember what triggered the emotions and the tears. time does not heal and distance does not matter. he is still the one.

2011年5月8日 没有王仕捷的第五百四十三天

Post General Election 2011 Reflection

a very big thank you to our government (particularly PAP) for the great 45 years and 9 months since independence. history has seen how singapore prosper and grow. peace and stability in the country have been taken for granted. no one can deny the efforts put in by the pioneers to be where we are today. i have absolute faith in their leadership. much as i feel that people's voices need to be heard, would more opposition in the parliament help? quoting evelyn, "Whether GY's team or LTK's team wins, it is a loss to Singapore", indeed we've lost a capable and admirable foreign affairs minister. the main cause of this, GRC system. this very same system has gained us a "kate spade ambassador". i believe many of the voters have chosen the opposition this GE as a warning to the PAP. the party has led singapore to success and i trust they will continue to bring the country to greater heights with a correct group of successors. in my opinion, opposition has the upper hand in terms of better potential successors (at least they know what to say, no pun intended). having said all these, i hope everyone understands that there's no way to change the GE results. to PAP supporters, give the opposition a chance to prove their worth. to opposition supporters, give PAP a chance to redeem themselves for whatever you think they have not fulfilled or done well. look forward to another amazing 5 years.

p.s. sincerely hoping for george yeo to replace tin pei ling in parliament

2011年5月2日 没有王仕捷的第五百三十七天

我们没有在一起 刘若英

你一直说的那个公园已经拆了
还记得荡著秋千日子就飞起来
漫漫的下午阳光都在脸上撒野
你那傻气我真是想念

那时候小小的你还没学会叹气
谁又会想到他们现在喊我女王
你哈哈笑的样子倒是一点没变
时间走了谁还在等呢

这杯咖啡忘了加糖
真不是我那么伤感
世界太复杂你说单纯很难
我当然都明白

可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨

我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享

那条路走呀走呀走呀总要回家
两只手握著晃呀晃呀舍不得放
你不知道吧后来后来我都在想
跟你走吧管它去哪呀

这杯咖啡忘了加糖
真不是我那么伤感
世界太复杂你说单纯很难
我当然都明白

可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨

我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享

可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨

我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享
我们没有在一起至少还像朋友一样
你远远的关心其实更长

2011年4月20日 没有王仕捷的第五百二十五天

it's obvious what you wanted. to get rid of someone whom you don't want for good and in return get a perfect replacement. what right do you have to make your problem my problem? seriously, what lousy excuse is it to say that your retailer is hard to get along and give thousand and one others to justify your exchange. F-off!

2011年4月17日 没有王仕捷的第五百二十二天

Zouk 20th Anniversary Week

13 April - Day 1 - Mambo Jambo featuring special guest Aldrin

great to have aldrin back for mambo! he's juz awesome. hearing his set reminds me of the good old days. tho it was a night with juz PQ, royston and kok loong, we had good amount of fun! thanks to djB for the fantastic mix of retro and top 40s.

much as i started regular clubbing at zouk for the love of mambo, and much as i like retro music, i enjoy listening to top 40s as well. i can't understand why some people out there juz do not wish to conform to changes or rather be more receptive towards other genre. what happend 2 wednesdays ago says everything about mambo. at 0345, the dance floor was almost empty with everyone left (except gerald) looking super bored as B started his rampage of retro music. personally, i feel a good mix of retro and top 40s is awesome as it provides a balance and would reach out to more people. cheers to B! =)

14 April - Day 2 - Armin van Buuren

the crowd at AvB was crazy! no complains as it was quality spinning with happy company, buddy ben, justin, crystal, elaina and stevie!

15 April - Day 3 - The Official 20th Anniversary Celebration Party

glad to be part of the performing team at the party. personally, this mambo jambo segment is definitely nowhere near comparison to the esplanade performance 2 years back. nevertheless, we enjoyed ourselves to the fullest that night. and yes, i got myself wasted as usual. *bleah* how not to when there was free flow (including cordon bleu!) at members bar! the bartenders had fun playing santa, happily ordered drinks and place it at the bar for us without us asking. special thanks goes out to james for the never ending bottles of stella. and not to mention the numerous complimentary drinks coupons we got (thanks to natasha and especially sofian for the generosity). quoting royston, "20 years ago, we learnt a new 4 letter word Z-O-U-K. 20 years later, we learn 2 new 4 letter words F-R-E-E F-L-O-W".

original plan for 16 April - Day 4, was to chill out at wine bar after our wagyu and sashimi dinner. power of free flow led us to the decision of heading home after the awesome dinner.

2011年4月12日 没有王仕捷的第五百十七天

Daddy's Birthday and Retirement - 11 April

2011年4月11日 没有王仕捷的第五百十六天

Happy Things =)

my 1st pair of crocs - olivia cranberry

孙燕姿 是时候

2011年3月29日 没有王仕捷的第五百零三天

why am i irritated by such a trivial issue? Yup. It has to be coz of the person involved. What's the point? Nothing's gonna change. I shall not bother myself with anything that has to do with the three letters again (not the one starting with J of coz). In an utterly bad mood now. Thanks!

2011年3月28日 没有王仕捷的第五百零二天

很爱很爱你 刘若英

想为你做件事
让你更快乐的事
好在你的心中埋下我的名字
求时间趁着你
不注意的时候
悄悄地把这种子酿成果实

我想她的确是
更适合你的女子
我太不够温柔成熟优雅懂事
如果我退回到
好朋友的位置
你也就不再需要为难成这样子

很爱很爱你
所以愿意舍得让你
往更多幸福的地方飞去
很爱很爱你
只有让你拥有爱情我才安心

看着她走向你
那幅画面多美丽
如果我会哭泣也是因为欢喜
地球上两个人
能相遇不容易
作不成你的情人我仍感激

am not that into mr nice guy, tho i do not deny that i do like him. juz happen that one of the lines in this song kept ringing in my head. i'm beginning to doubt if we're even friends. maybe i was demanding in making the request that i would not go clubbing if you could accompany me. know it was out of concern for my swollen ankle. the answer was 'you know i can't'. or so i believed he really can't till 'i'm on my way to fetch a female colleague home'. oh well, seems like i'm nowhere near a friend, not to mention good friend. i wasn't joking when i said 'you're nice to everyone else except me'. it's a fact. acquaintance shall he be.

2011年3月17日 没有王仕捷的第四百九十一天

am so gonna get a chanel bag!

Large Flap Bag

Large Shopping Bag

Large Tote

can't decide which one to get. price place a huge importance in my final choice. *bleah* can't wait to bring one of them home!

2011年3月7日 没有王仕捷的第四百八十一天

"Never get too attached to anyone because attachments lead to expectations and expectations lead to disappointments"

this statement has been proven true so many times to me. much as i always remind myself not to expect too much or even expect anything at all, there are bound to be times when expectations arise. during such times, no matter how minimal the expectations are, more often than not, they will lead to unhappiness or worse, quarrels. i suppose when one becomes more attached to another person (especially a change in status), expectations tend to increase in one way or another. however, there are people who take things for granted, unknowingly lower the level of TLC given to the other party and hence, leading to disappointments. at this point, please do not become defensive and say "he/she should understand". it is always much easier to understand the situation fully when you are not in it. remember that there are two sides to a coin, you may be at the head one day, but you will never know when you will be at the tail.

i am trying my best to not have any expectations from him. everything else that comes will be a bonus. a simple email reply from him made my sunday. =)

2011年3月2日 没有王仕捷的第四百七十六天



am so hooked to this song. been looping it the whole morning in office. past week has been terrible - insomnia. had difficulty staying asleep through the night. i'd tried my best to engage in all sorts of activities in order to tire myself out - ineffective. decided that i've been thinking too much and kept my brain active while my body shut down. the lyrics of the song kind of struck me, and i'm feeling slightly better both mentally and emotionally. i swear insomnia is evil, it causes people to suffer breakdowns, i almost did.

2011年2月22日 没有王仕捷的第四百六十八天

自恋自拍


realised that i haven't been camwhoring for the longest time. *bleah*

2011年2月20日 没有王仕捷的第四百六十六天

reverse psychology does not work on me.. it has adverse effects.. >.<

i hate it when he tells me to find kenny.
i hate it when he asks me why i'm home so early.
i hate it when he says he wouldn't know even if i find other guys.

as expected, he's busier with his new job and have lesser time for his girlfriend, not to even mention me. am i becoming more demanding towards him? or that i've always been this attention seeking? he'd stopped finding time to call me when he's with the girlfriend. i wonder which is worse, missing the one in hong kong or missing the one who's so near yet so far.

2011年2月19日 没有王仕捷的第四百六十五天


i'm a sucker for colours. *bleah* got these at 25%. thanks to gracie dearie for the communal benefits. *grins*

2011年2月15日 没有王仕捷的第四百六十一天

‎5 years.. And counting?

The Prelude - 2005 Christmas Shaw Roadshow

2006 Dinner and Dance - Sales Consultants

2006 Team Building - Bintan Angsana Resort

Nokia Wisma Atria

Nokia Parkway Parade

Nokia Century Square

2007 Field Force Team

2007 Team Building - Bintan Lagoon Resort

2008 Team Building - Batam View Resort

2009 Comes with Music Campaign - Zouk

2010 Promoter Master Challenge

2011年2月13日 没有王仕捷的第四百五十九天

Perfect Nightmare Shontelle

Sometimes we fight, sometimes I cry
Why don't I just tell him goodbye
Sometimes I should, but sometimes I don't
Build up the strength to say that it's wrong
Sometimes I hate, sometimes I love
Sometimes I hurt, sometimes I don't
Sometimes I wait for him to change
But it's okay, I've disguised the pain
And I don't ever wanna leave him alone
They say I'm brainwashed but I'm in love with this man, yeah

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream
No way, no way, no way,
No way, no way, no way, no way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare

Sometimes I keep my cool, sometimes I let him know
Sometimes I even pack my bags to walk out the door
Sometimes I feel safe, sometimes I really don't
Sometimes I promise that I'm ready to let him go
But I don't ever wanna leave him alone
They say I'm brainwashed but I'm in love with this man

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream
No way, no way, no way,
No way, no way, no way, no way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare

Hoping he's changing, but I'm scared he's not
Can't see a way to leave, help me open my eyes

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it (no way)
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting (don't mind hurting)
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream
No way, no way, no way,
No way, no way, no way, no way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare

No way, no way, no way,
No way, no way, no way, no way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare

Perfect nightmare.

2011年2月8日 没有王仕捷的第四百五十四天

Mummy's Birthday - 07 February



aunty, cousins, nephew and niece came over for CNY visiting and celebrated my mum's birthday together. it's juz amazing how time flies. my nephew is gonna be enlisted in a few hours time. good luck! and make the most out of the 2 years. =) my niece is already into her 2nd year in cedar! so proud that she has joined the big family. once a cedarian, always a cedarian.

glad that he actually managed to squeeze time out to meet me for coffee. well, i'll definitely take his suggestion to start a log book on the times i get drunk, how i promise to try stop getting drunk and put my signature on it. he'll check the log everytime he's back. *laughs* one of the silly conversations that i'll have with him. some things juz never change. =) i always feel so comfortable and at ease talking to him. i do miss him loads. such happiness is shortlived i suppose.

me: so are you coming back this september?
him: *shakes head*
me: you're staying in hong kong? *half in shock*
him: moving to china.
me: when?
him: they're supposed to let me sign the contract these few days, nothing is passed to me yet. bosses wanted me to move after this CNY holiday, told them it's quite impossible.
me: how long are you gonna be posted there for?
him: at least a year.
me: *pouts and sulks*

my worst fear has been affirmed. it's gonna be a prolonged wait. *sigh*

p.s. happy to see him wear/use things that i bought for him, coz they'll probably remind him of me. *grins* much as i want him to start using the starwalker, i'm juz as afraid that he'll misplace it. *bleah*

2011年2月6日 没有王仕捷的第四百五十二天

have only myself to blame if i don't manage to catch him before he returns to hong kong. didn't plan to get drunk at all on cny eve's mambo, but i did eventually. *bleah* that did get me into loads of trouble at home and lots of inconvenience to my clubbing kakis as usual. many apologies. would have gone out with him after mambo and i probably wasted another chance as he called me late 初一 night (early 初二 morning) but i was already deep in sleep due to 除夕 night's mishap. was pretty upset as i assumed that he would be flying off this evening but to my surprise, he's flying back only early thursday morning! i'm not raising my hopes of meeting him as disappointment would be too mild a word if i don't get to see him. quite tight but possible, he says, maybe one of the weekdays late night or something. keeping my fingers crossed. in any case, i'm happy that he's staying. *smiles*

p.s. my mouse has died yet again. *grumpy* cat likes to scare the mouse so it dies easily.

2011年2月1日 没有王仕捷的第四百四十七天

Greetings from Sweden! *loves*

so sweet of the boys to send a postcard. =) it's gonna be a less noisy chinese new year mambo without them.

wonder if he's back in town. the anticipation of the possibility of seeing him tomorrow is killing me yet again.

2011年1月20日 没有王仕捷的第四百三十五天

think i should really start controlling my emotions and not letting it run wild. wonder what is wrong with me. why do i always want things that i can't have? *sigh* am i juz trying to fill up the empty spaces that he left behind? or am i really falling for mr nice guy? player by name? i hate. i love to play, but why do i end up being played out? this time, it hurts.

2011年1月19日 没有王仕捷的第四百三十四天

i'm such a auntie to be reading this. *bleah* but i like! found the books on the living room table and i couldn't resist the temptation to explore further.

2011年1月11日 没有王仕捷的第四百二十六天


so gonna miss the 2 boys for the next 6 months. they have flown off to sweden for exchange early this morning. m&m (mambo and mahjong) would not be the same without them.

2011年1月10日 没有王仕捷的第四百二十五天

cleared my shoe cabinet!

and i'm throwing all these away! 旧的不去，新的不来！*winks*

2011年1月4日 没有王仕捷的第四百十九天

was almost done blogging the whole hong kong trip when it has to happen again. wonder what i did to delete the post and *bleah* i'm too lazy to re-write. time passes too fast for my liking. someone asked if i'm sad to be going back to singapore in a few hours time. i'm more upset about the end of my leave period than anything else. feels good to have done quite a bit of shopping today to end this holiday on a great note. *beams* it is even better to have wine, cheese and snacks with shirleen and kee for dinner. thanks dear for everything over the past 5 days, especially the company.

spending time with the couple made me realised what i have been looking for in a partner - someone who can
1. impress me - need not be smart, talented or gorgeous looking, just simply know more things than i do, guide me through difficult times.
2. understand me - i don't need to be pampered all the time, just give and take appropriately.

seeing him the night before was further affirmation that i've not given up. it juz amazes me that i've been hanging on to this uncertainty for coming 3 years and still counting. past 2 months had been a disaster. honestly, i have no idea why i got myself involved with a boy 6 years my junior. simply pure craziness. this kid proved that i do need an older man to take care of me, i can never be the nanny in the relationship. will i have to wait for another 3 years or more?

2011年1月2日 没有王仕捷的第四百十七天

Hong Kong Day 2 (31 Dec continued)

- love our new year eve dinner by shirleen dear - huge bowl of greens (the salad bowl was her christmas pressie from kee), hashbrowns, steak for kee, bread, cheese and wine! excellent combination to end 2010

- the salad was cleared out by shirleen and me
- headed to west kowloon waterfront promenade for the countdown fireworks, may i add that kee was so proud to be able to fit in well with the locals with his big jacket with furry hoodie, shirleen called him marshmallow man, i think he could do with igloo man *laughs*
- we were surprised by crowd, the lack of it (not that we're complaining)


- and here's the moment!
- we were pretty disappointed by the display, the couple had seen better ones during national day and i felt that fireworks back home is definitely better *bleah*
- reluctantly left the place as we hoped there would be a climax
- took almost an hour for us to walk to jordan for 堂记肠粉 - fortunately, the 肠粉 was worth our half hour wait despite the fact that almost everything we wanted was sold out