shouldn't i be sleeping?

can't hold back my temper any longer. prejudiced or not? i don't care. i simply don't like the way how one can back up for another for no good or apparent reason. evil and selfish? yes, that's me! i'm sure i can do much better than her but you juz want to help her keep her job. you said she cannot commit 100% because of her other job scope. since she can't cope, i offered to take over. it would ease communication, reduce lag time and minimize loss in information. why should i bother myself with this in the 1st place? i'm not getting a pay rise nor promotion for doing additional work. i juz simply don't understand what is so difficult about clicking the 'forward' button of outlook. it's not as simple as it seems and i agree! but that's what she has been doing! i know i was at fault for raising my voice at you and i'm sorry for being rude. please do reflect if you had been over-protective of her as well. if i'm the only one feeling this way, it might be my problem. but if 10 others feel the same way, i believe the process needs to be reviewed. it's time for me to move on. counting down...

steamboat at bugis with serena, joshua, agnes, john and dear princess nina. seems to be our favourite meeting place for dinner. *grins* really miss the times working together. i wonder why working with them is so much happier and easier? i guess there're no conflict of interest and that's why. i suppose we had build up a strong bond over the years that is hard to break.

atmosphere at home is still a little tense. mum seems to have gotten better but i've yet to figure out the truth behind her weird behaviour. i'm on the verge of giving up and i'm escaping from it. staying out later than usual everyday so that i do not have to face her without dad and minimise contact is my strategy. her long note had a huge impact on me. i know i have to stay strong but i don't know how much longer i can hold out.

there're juz too much things on my mind which i wanna throw out. i only want to fill my mind with happy memories. i realise i'm becoming more dependant on him and that's not a good sign. i'm missing him more and more. couldn't believe i would do this much for him. i do not expect anything in return. think i'm falling, falling deep...