sometimes, i really think i need to hear myself. putting my thoughts down in the blog is a good way. looking back at past entries would make me laugh at myself for being so silly. thousand and one things happened within a span of two weeks. fast isn't it? everything seems right but wrong at the same time. i've tried and still trying very hard to keep things going, to make sure things fall into place, but things juz doesn't seem to go on the right track. maybe its true that good things like this are juz not meant to befall on me. is he juz a beautiful dream? maybe it is. i hate myself, i really do. i guess it's retribution? i meant every word i said and put my heart and soul into this relationship. i've hurt many people but i've my fair share of pain as well. it hurts, badly.