it's been a really lousy week and that's part of the reason why i haven't been blogging. izzit pms or izzit juz me? *shrug* guess work at nokia has driven me crazy. my life is juz too routined. honestly, i miss those clubbing and mahjong days. not having to worry about any other things. i know that's an irresponsible thought but i juz wish life would be more interesting. juz a passing thought. no worries. there're more things i hafta put into consideration apart from my own happiness. my dreams and all others around me. much more than i can imagine. i can't juz give up as i wish. had too much faith in myself. thought i would be able to face everything. but deep inside, i'm breaking down. hafta admit that i'm not as strong as people think and i'm not as independent as i seem to be. it hurts and that makes me feel like putting down everything and run away. would rather choose to be the woman behind the successful man than to be a successful woman. but i realised that the former may not be easier than the latter. *sigh* why is life so complex? sometimes i juz wish to settle for a simple life. probably that would make living less complicated. but can i?