been asking myself a question: what made me start this blog? my guess is him. not the HIM that i've been posting recently but someone who has a special place in my heart. it began with entries of my feelings and emotions, usually negative. probably an outlet for me to express my unhappiness. moved on to post about my everyday life, letting friends who care keep track of how i've been doing. however, i'm beginning to feel that my privacy is being intruded in a way. *shrug* should have guessed that this would happen but i juz somehow feel uneasy about the intrusion. really wish i could blog more. especially during times like now. life's been a dread. things got to a point where there were too much for me to handle. but i'm slowly recovering. i really hope i do. thanks to daniel and ziwei for being there. it's not that easy to be my sister and part-time boyfriend. *grins* to gracie and shirleen: update more when we meet up. no worries about me, i'm doing fine at the moment. luck has been really down. wonder if my lucky star is slacking juz like me. been on a losing streak at mahjong for the past 2 weeks. not to mention that i've been extremely injury prone too. the worst being the incident this morning on my way back to hall from school. wonder if it's the lack of sleep or i'm juz plain clumsy or izzit that i'm getting too heavy for my poor legs to carry. my knees gave way and i landed on the road. as a result of the fall, my jeans has got a hole and both my knees are scarred. been a long time since i had such a bad fall. makes me wonder what's coming up next. life's in a mess and to make things worse, i'm not able to find comfort at home. feeling guilty for staying out late all the time but i juz din want to be alone and let my mind start wandering. neither do i want my parents to start worrying for me. someone once told me that i'm being too hard on myself at times, resulting in all these upsets. am i?