it's hard to deny that age is catching up on me. played inter-house netball on friday and realised that i don't have stamina nor agility anymore. *sobs* how am i gonna run marathon? seriously, i'm contemplating to give up the idea already. should i or should i not? it's my dream to complete the full marathon. *shrug* will i have a dream come true? it was a happy evening though. 1stly, no quarrels over the game. that's a record ya. 2ndly... shall keep it a secret. *bleah* left right after the game to meet up with the mambo chummies. of course i did showered 1st before heading down to bishan, ziwei's place. what else can we be up to? it has to be mahjong! played with ziwei, huiqing and mitchelle at the beginning, while danny and zhikai kept themselves entertained. when ken arrived after work, another table was set up with ken, mitchelle and zhikai playing "san jiao" and danny joined the original table. played 3 rounds and guess what? i finally won ziwei at mahjong! *grins* he claims to have been distracted by his infected eyes and could only see half of the tiles. a win is a win. no issue about it. *bleah* left the place at 7 plus and everyone (minus ziwei who had to rest his eyes for an important date later in the day) went to a nearby coffeshop for breakfast. after which was home.

gracie picked me up for lunch at 3 plus on saturday afternoon. settled for sushi tei at serangoon gardens. in order to fully utilise her card and voucher, we stuffed ourselves with food hoping to achieve a total bill of $45. to our dismay, we were $5 short. *pouts* nevertheless, lunch was good. so were the small talks and exchange of gossips. did i say i was full? *laughs* went chomp chomp to get dessert as the heat was really killing me. good excuse eh. supposed to play mahjong with adrian in the evening but was cancelled yet again. decided that it was a homely day till my phone rang at 10. gonna meet up with allan, mitchelle and ziwei at double o. reached the place slightly past 12. said 'hi' to sebastian and left at around 2. guess i wasn't in the mood to club. ziwei didn't turn up. *grins* muz have been too upset after his not-up-to-expectation date. thanks to ken who drove down to fetch me and mitchelle for supper at east coast's macdonalds! my favourite yummy twister fries! that's not complete though. picked up a few bars of chocolate at 7-eleven. found a new product of cadbury. if i remember correctly, it's called 'boost'. quite nice. think that's gonna be my new craze.

suffered from monday blues. got up at 8 for my lab at 830. it's amazing that i actually managed to wakey. a pretty relaxed lab with internet access. spent the whole 2 hours checking mail, sending mail and surfing. *smiles* reached back hall at 10 plus and fell asleep. wanted to juz take a short nap. shocked to realise that it was already 530 when i got up. took a quick shower and headed for dinner in town with gracie and shirleen. sushi tei at millennia this time. was a short dinner date which we updated on each others' lives. happy to see them, made me felt better in a way. why wasn't i feeling good in the 1st place? *shrug* came back to hall and rotted till now. supposed to be doing revision, but i juz couldn't concentrate. can't believe that i hafta put up with 2 nonsensical guys at this hour. chatting on msn with ziwei and ken. they're practically changing every possible word to start with the letter 'J'. help!

still have not reach a decision on what to do. *sigh* i'm so indecisive! on one hand, i'm really afraid of the consequences. getting hurt and all. more importantly, i found out that he's already got someone in mind. on the other hand, i'm not the kind who will give up easily on such stuff. what am i to do?