*sigh* got my results last evening. it was bad. at a loss of what to do. need some time to sit down and think of what i really want. thanks to all those who offered help of any kind. really appreciate them. don't worry, i'll come up with something as soon as possible (i hope). think i might have a slight change in original plan. shrug. went ahead with mahjong with adrian, jeffery and JJ later in the night. had to divert my attention for a while. wonder if it's a good or bad thing that i actually felt better after the session. *grins* juz came back from a vegetarian buffet at quality hotel with gracie, shirleen and boyfriend (fabian) plus hazel. it's kind of like my birthday celebration (part 1). *smiles* surprised and happy that hazel actually turned up. been a long time since the four of us got together like this. no awkward silences and everything seems like nothing had happened. hope things will get better. glad she's slowly coming back into my life. it's a good start for now. looking forward to next saturday.