im feeling so tired. haven cried out loud like tis for quite sum time. my eyes are gonna be so swollen. im really upset. couldn't believe that he actually asked to borrow my credit card number to buy flowers for another ger. maybe he doesn't understand me at all. it was a happy nite. went to watch "Troy" with him. nice but sad show. everything was fine till he asked. he kept saying that he doesn't want me to be sad, he dun wanna see me cry, but all these while, the only person who made me upset n tear is him. he loves me as a fren n doesn't wanna lose me. but i dun wanna to be juz a fren. *sigh* he told me who his gf is and in return, i promised not to breathe a word to anyone else. oh god! it's a lousy feeling! and i guess i noe y is tt so. life sux! i wish i can juz lose my memory foreva! let me juz rem my parents, grace and shirleen for they are whom i noe will always be by my side encouraging me always.