Juz had a long conversation with my ex bf. There're lots of issues on my mind now, finding it hard to put all of them down into words. I nv did imagine myself discussing with him abt his relationship with his current gf, till tonite. After he told me tt I actually noe who his gf is, I pestered him to tell me her identity which he nv did coz he promised her not to. I admit tt I do feel kinda upset hearing him speak abt her. Why? From the way he speaks and describes abt wat he does for her and feels abt her, I noe he does love her alot. I dunno if wat I'm doing is rite, but I'm juz doing wat I wanna do, be there for him when he needs me. To be there listening to his innermost thoughts, to share his burden, tt's enough for me, at least for now. I feel happy to spend the small amount of time with him, doing little things for him. I guess tt's how u feel when u really love sumone. He'll always haf a special place in my heart which no one can replace and no one can eva break the strong bond tt we both share. I really hope to be back together with him, but I noe, it's not the rite time yet. The day when I'm confident tt we are able to not quarrel all the time will be the day when I can call him Dear Dear again...