Tuesday, February 15, 2011

2011年2月15日 没有王仕捷的第四百六十一天

‎5 years.. And counting?

The Prelude - 2005 Christmas Shaw Roadshow


2006 Dinner and Dance - Sales Consultants


2006 Team Building - Bintan Angsana Resort


Nokia Wisma Atria


Nokia Parkway Parade


Nokia Century Square


2007 Field Force Team


2007 Team Building - Bintan Lagoon Resort


2008 Team Building - Batam View Resort


2009 Comes with Music Campaign - Zouk


2010 Promoter Master Challenge

Sunday, February 13, 2011

2011年2月13日 没有王仕捷的第四百五十九天

Perfect Nightmare Shontelle

Sometimes we fight, sometimes I cry
Why don't I just tell him goodbye
Sometimes I should, but sometimes I don't
Build up the strength to say that it's wrong
Sometimes I hate, sometimes I love
Sometimes I hurt, sometimes I don't
Sometimes I wait for him to change
But it's okay, I've disguised the pain
And I don't ever wanna leave him alone
They say I'm brainwashed but I'm in love with this man, yeah

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream
No way, no way, no way,
No way, no way, no way, no way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare

Sometimes I keep my cool, sometimes I let him know
Sometimes I even pack my bags to walk out the door
Sometimes I feel safe, sometimes I really don't
Sometimes I promise that I'm ready to let him go
But I don't ever wanna leave him alone
They say I'm brainwashed but I'm in love with this man

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream
No way, no way, no way,
No way, no way, no way, no way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare

Hoping he's changing, but I'm scared he's not
Can't see a way to leave, help me open my eyes

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it (no way)
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting (don't mind hurting)
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream
No way, no way, no way,
No way, no way, no way, no way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare

No way, no way, no way,
No way, no way, no way, no way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare

Perfect nightmare
.

Tuesday, February 08, 2011

2011年2月8日 没有王仕捷的第四百五十四天

Mummy's Birthday - 07 February



aunty, cousins, nephew and niece came over for CNY visiting and celebrated my mum's birthday together. it's juz amazing how time flies. my nephew is gonna be enlisted in a few hours time. good luck! and make the most out of the 2 years. =) my niece is already into her 2nd year in cedar! so proud that she has joined the big family. once a cedarian, always a cedarian.

glad that he actually managed to squeeze time out to meet me for coffee. well, i'll definitely take his suggestion to start a log book on the times i get drunk, how i promise to try stop getting drunk and put my signature on it. he'll check the log everytime he's back. *laughs* one of the silly conversations that i'll have with him. some things juz never change. =) i always feel so comfortable and at ease talking to him. i do miss him loads. such happiness is shortlived i suppose.

me: so are you coming back this september?
him: *shakes head*
me: you're staying in hong kong? *half in shock*
him: moving to china.
me: when?
him: they're supposed to let me sign the contract these few days, nothing is passed to me yet. bosses wanted me to move after this CNY holiday, told them it's quite impossible.
me: how long are you gonna be posted there for?
him: at least a year.
me: *pouts and sulks*


my worst fear has been affirmed. it's gonna be a prolonged wait. *sigh*

p.s. happy to see him wear/use things that i bought for him, coz they'll probably remind him of me. *grins* much as i want him to start using the starwalker, i'm juz as afraid that he'll misplace it. *bleah*

Sunday, February 06, 2011

2011年2月6日 没有王仕捷的第四百五十二天

have only myself to blame if i don't manage to catch him before he returns to hong kong. didn't plan to get drunk at all on cny eve's mambo, but i did eventually. *bleah* that did get me into loads of trouble at home and lots of inconvenience to my clubbing kakis as usual. many apologies. would have gone out with him after mambo and i probably wasted another chance as he called me late 初一 night (early 初二 morning) but i was already deep in sleep due to 除夕 night's mishap. was pretty upset as i assumed that he would be flying off this evening but to my surprise, he's flying back only early thursday morning! i'm not raising my hopes of meeting him as disappointment would be too mild a word if i don't get to see him. quite tight but possible, he says, maybe one of the weekdays late night or something. keeping my fingers crossed. in any case, i'm happy that he's staying. *smiles*

p.s. my mouse has died yet again. *grumpy* cat likes to scare the mouse so it dies easily.

Tuesday, February 01, 2011

2011年2月1日 没有王仕捷的第四百四十七天



Greetings from Sweden! *loves*

so sweet of the boys to send a postcard. =) it's gonna be a less noisy chinese new year mambo without them.

wonder if he's back in town. the anticipation of the possibility of seeing him tomorrow is killing me yet again.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

2011年1月20日 没有王仕捷的第四百三十五天

think i should really start controlling my emotions and not letting it run wild. wonder what is wrong with me. why do i always want things that i can't have? *sigh* am i juz trying to fill up the empty spaces that he left behind? or am i really falling for mr nice guy? player by name? i hate. i love to play, but why do i end up being played out? this time, it hurts.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

2011年1月19日 没有王仕捷的第四百三十四天



i'm such a auntie to be reading this. *bleah* but i like! found the books on the living room table and i couldn't resist the temptation to explore further.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

2011年1月11日 没有王仕捷的第四百二十六天


so gonna miss the 2 boys for the next 6 months. they have flown off to sweden for exchange early this morning. m&m (mambo and mahjong) would not be the same without them.

Monday, January 10, 2011

2011年1月10日 没有王仕捷的第四百二十五天


cleared my shoe cabinet!



and i'm throwing all these away! 旧的不去,新的不来!*winks*

Tuesday, January 04, 2011

2011年1月4日 没有王仕捷的第四百十九天

was almost done blogging the whole hong kong trip when it has to happen again. wonder what i did to delete the post and *bleah* i'm too lazy to re-write. time passes too fast for my liking. someone asked if i'm sad to be going back to singapore in a few hours time. i'm more upset about the end of my leave period than anything else. feels good to have done quite a bit of shopping today to end this holiday on a great note. *beams* it is even better to have wine, cheese and snacks with shirleen and kee for dinner. thanks dear for everything over the past 5 days, especially the company.

spending time with the couple made me realised what i have been looking for in a partner - someone who can
1. impress me - need not be smart, talented or gorgeous looking, just simply know more things than i do, guide me through difficult times.
2. understand me - i don't need to be pampered all the time, just give and take appropriately.

seeing him the night before was further affirmation that i've not given up. it juz amazes me that i've been hanging on to this uncertainty for coming 3 years and still counting. past 2 months had been a disaster. honestly, i have no idea why i got myself involved with a boy 6 years my junior. simply pure craziness. this kid proved that i do need an older man to take care of me, i can never be the nanny in the relationship. will i have to wait for another 3 years or more?

Sunday, January 02, 2011

2011年1月2日 没有王仕捷的第四百十七天

Hong Kong Day 2 (31 Dec continued)


- love our new year eve dinner by shirleen dear - huge bowl of greens (the salad bowl was her christmas pressie from kee), hashbrowns, steak for kee, bread, cheese and wine! excellent combination to end 2010



- the salad was cleared out by shirleen and me
- headed to west kowloon waterfront promenade for the countdown fireworks, may i add that kee was so proud to be able to fit in well with the locals with his big jacket with furry hoodie, shirleen called him marshmallow man, i think he could do with igloo man *laughs*
- we were surprised by crowd, the lack of it (not that we're complaining)


- and here's the moment!
- we were pretty disappointed by the display, the couple had seen better ones during national day and i felt that fireworks back home is definitely better *bleah*
- reluctantly left the place as we hoped there would be a climax
- took almost an hour for us to walk to jordan for 堂记肠粉 - fortunately, the 肠粉 was worth our half hour wait despite the fact that almost everything we wanted was sold out

Friday, December 31, 2010

2010年12月31日 没有王仕捷的第四百十五天

last post of the year! (point form is due to sheer laziness *bleah*)

Hong Kong Day 1 (30 Dec)



- great brunch by shirleen dear - french toast with bananas and peanut butter *beams*
- had lucky dessert at mongkok for tea - 榴莲绵绵冰 for her and 椰子绵绵冰 for me
- and yes! i had my favourite egg tart from 泰昌, 2 in fact, 1 flaky and 1 normal crust, flaky crust is new but i still prefer the normal one =)
- took a walk at pacific place's GREAT - our favourite supermarket
- sat down for 'the works' fries at a fast food place just outside GREAT as we waited for time to pass


- 1825: made our way to the pier for our junk ride!
- kee was late for an hour but that doesn't hinder our seafood dinner plan at lamma island
- i was freezing throughout the junk ride and hot tea at 天虹海鲜酒家 when we reached the island saved me from the cold
- food was ok but the company i had made dinner great!
- fell asleep on the junk ride back to kowloon

Hong Kong Day 2 (31 Dec)

- 1215: started our wilson trail hike at tai tam reservoir road


- supposed to be an easy walk but we outsmarted ourselves by doing a longer route which we had to go up god knows how many steps and take a few treacherous downward paths




- all the effort was worthwhile for the breathtaking views we had



- only managed to get to stanley close to 1600
- settled ourselves at pickled pelican - ice cold beer + yummy club sandwich + shirleen dear = bliss
- headed for taste supermarket at stanley to get stuff for our new year eve dinner
- reached back less than half hour ago due to a slight jam on our way back

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

2010年12月29日 没有王仕捷的第四百十三天

我真的很累。
不知从何时开始,我的人生变得那么复杂。
我真的那么不堪寂寞吗?或是我真的太贪玩了?
真期待明天的到来。离开这个既陌生又熟悉的地方。
我总是想痛快地哭一场来弥补心中的伤痛。
但眼泪能冲淡一切吗?
也许我应该回到不属于我的避风港。
不能拥有,但却能找到安慰。

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

2010年12月15日 没有王仕捷的第三百九十九天

Colourful 小笼包 from Paradise Dynasty

one of the two of my recent new loves - time-honoured delicacy with eight types of fusion 小笼包. never tried before flavours like crab roe, cheese, garlic, herbal, 麻辣, foie gras and black truffle. even the original tastes better than crystal jade's and price is similar to the latter. definitely going back there to have all eight flavours by myself. thanks to gerard and marcus for the great recommendation.

Apple iPad

yay! finally sold the iPhone to get the iPad! =) my mum was more excited than me when i brought it home.

Friday, December 10, 2010

2010年12月10日 没有王仕捷的第三百九十四天

Roy's Wedding - 07 Dec 2010

2nd wedding invitation on the 07 Dec, 1st was da jie's in 2008. i did mention the date's a good date, didn't i? *bleah* dear dear should have his wedding on 07 Dec next year too. roy's wedding was like a gathering for those seated at our table, mixture of Nokia field representatives and sales consultants back in 2005. though it's been a long time, there wasn't any sign of distance. had a great time talking of the good old times.

Charlie's Angels - Me, Joyce, Janice

Nokia Field Force 2005


a phone call yesterday afternoon made me a happy girl. yes! i'm obssessed and this obssession is growing despite the long distance. =)

Sunday, November 21, 2010

2010年11月21日 没有王仕捷的第三百七十五天


i'm missing this guy like crazy. juz had a short 5 minutes conversation with him. no, it doesn't help. especially when he mentioned that he might not be around when i visit hong kong in late december. *upset*

Tuesday, November 09, 2010

2010年11月9日 没有王仕捷的第三百六十三天

09 Nov - Shanghai Day 2

Started our day at 7 degrees. Breakfast was bread with butter. I'm back to being a full fledged vege girl for these 8 days. I'll try to remember that I'm a vegetarian as reminded by someone *bleah*


Shanghai World Financial Center was our 1st stop. Nice view from the 100th floor. A little foggy but it was still a great experience.



2nd stop 城隍庙街, main shopping and entertainment area for the locals. The ancient architecture is probably the most interesting for me here. The 2nd picture shows my determination to be a vege girl during this trip. *winks*

Took a 2 hour nap on the coach to Suzhou after a full lunch. Power nap! =)


Lazily and pretty reluctantly got myself down at our 1st spot in Singapore Suzhou Industrial Park, 金鸡湖. Weather is really cool at 18 degrees, nice enough to take a short break by the lake.


耦园. Mum says it would be nice to stay in a house like this back in Singapore.


Probably the only temple we're gonna visit for this whole trip, 寒山寺. It's the 1st time that I come across a temple that needs a ticket for entrance! >.<


Early dinner at 5pm. Guess what?! My worst nightmare has come true. One of the dishes is black fungus fried with black fungus! =(

The sun has set after dinner and we went shopping at a nearby street. Figured that I still love the Hong Kong shopping scene much better. =D

p.s. no images of my current accomodation in Suzhou as it's too run down by my standards.
2010年11月9日 没有王仕捷的第三百六十三天

08 Nov - Shanghai Day 1



上海航空酒店

Honestly, I wasn't expecting anything for this trip. Just want to get away from work and take a break with my parents.

I'm impressed by the Pudong Airport as it is well furnished and comfortable to be in. It was 10pm when i touched down and 11ish when i was on the way to rest for the 1st night. The roads are definitely much better than the impression i was under. And yes! I have to agree to a certain extent that Shanghai is better than Hong Kong in that aspect. The streets seem cleaner (from the coach late at night) and the buildings are generally better maintained. Amazing!

Monday, November 08, 2010

2010年11月8日 没有王仕捷的第三百六十二天


will be leaving for the airport in a while. think i'm gonna miss my bed though i had a bad dream (of him) last night. it felt so real that i hesitated for 5 seconds after i woke up before deciding that it was a dream. wasn't totally bad, at least he was supposed to be moving back to singapore by the end of this year which is good. *bleah* he's gone missing for like more than a month, no email, no text. *sigh* was still hoping to be able to meet him this coming week. guess i was juz thinking too much.

Sunday, November 07, 2010

2010年11月7日 没有王仕捷的第三百六十一天

i've always believed that horoscope/zodiac has got certain percentage of accuracy and truth in them.

狗 Dog

Personality
Honest , faithful and possessing deep loyalty and responsibility. Can be magnanimous and prosperous, yet also guarded and defensive, never really relaxed despite outer calm. She has a glib tongue, practical and realistic. The Dog is also trustworthy and generous to people and has a deep sense of justice.
This maybe the most likable sign of all in the Chinese cycle. A person born in the year of the Dog is honest, intelligent and straightforward. He has a deep sense of loyalty and a passion for justice and fair play. A dog native is usually animated and attractive and will exude sex appeal. Generally amiable and unpretentious, he will know how to get along with others as he is not too demanding. The egalitarian dog likes to meet others halfway, is always willing to listen to reason and can be counted on to do his share.
For a friend, you must know that whenever you are in trouble, all you have to do is dial D-O-G. For no matter how much he or she complains, scolds, feign indifference, the Dog person cannot ignore a real call for help. At times, the dog protects the interests of others more avidly than his own. The Dog often sticks to his object of affection no matter how unworthy the person is. You don't find a dog leaving home just because he discovers that his master has the proverbial feet of clay. He makes allowances for such frailties and will probably stick it out thick or thin.

The Dog likes: Routine, Challenges, Friends, Presents, Travel, Food, Play and Nature
The Dog dislikes: Mistreatment, Fakes, Discomfort, Rudeness, Dishonesty, Hunger and Anger

Compatible Animals: Tiger, Rabbit, Horse

Your Luck In Year 2011

Overall Forecast
You are honest and patient but stubborn and lack good interpersonal skills. Females like to listen to sweet talk and are always be remorseful of things, beware of it. Silence is golden but sometimes being conservative can hardly convince others. You are kind, diligent, independent, ardour and a self-learner. Your fortune would meet the turning point at your middle age, you will be wealthy in the old age, but may not have a long-lasting relationship in marriage.
Lucky stars are surrounding you, making it a free and easy ride for you this year. Those who wish to set up or develop your business can be entitled to do so. Students are shinning bright with a brilliant mind, and who would outperform their peers with some diligence sprinkled into it.
Your wealth is strong, but guard against scams. Your health is better, and family harmony is good when you all co-exist well.

Career
The trend of luck this year is suitable for your character; you have to treasure the golden chance. It is time to fulfill your longed-for wish. Business performance is increasing exponentially. Do harness a better relation with your office staff. The great time for extra-income has come and is waiting for your harvest.

Love
You will present indulging, passive mood for love, but the emotions are unsatisfactory. Although you may be congenial with the opposite sex, you should treasure your lover and not take things for granted. After the test of time, you will know that your lover is the one who supports behind you.

Wealth
Your wealth is excellent, where your mainstream income is abundant. But do not greed. Wise investment can bring in a fat harvest, so you may want to consider multiple forms of investments or plain savings will also suffice. Your personal income will be getting better after securing a small fortune in gambling in the second half of the year, as compared to overspending in the first half of the year. But guard against deceits.

Health
Your immune system is poor. You may want to ease down on drinking even with the hectic social networking. Stay happy to fend off the seasonal flu bug. The elderly is facing a weakened constitution, so have more happiness and healthy food as well as exercise in your life style.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

2010年10月31日 没有王仕捷的第三百五十四天

i'm missing him like crazy. i reckoned that whatever silly things i'm doing now, they're all efforts to occupy my time. perhaps it's unfair to everyone else, but i really have no idea how to cope with this any longer. i'm on the verge of breaking down. can't wait for december to arrive but yet the anticipation is juz killing me further. much as i wish i could juz walk away, i know i can't bear to give up. i wonder if he's gonna be back for good next year, when will this waiting end?

Thursday, October 21, 2010

2010年10月21日 没有王仕捷的第三百四十四天

我哭了。但为何还是那么纳闷?
好累,好烦。但想念还是那么深。
不断地重复着《你为什么说谎》。

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

2010年10月12日 没有王仕捷的第三百三十五天

妈妈终于返国。三个月的分离,真是度日如年。我终于不必为了繁重的家务而烦,爸爸也不会再感到寂寞。好期待下个月和爸妈的上海之旅。=)

最近总是觉得心神不宁,仿佛有些事在困扰着我。倒霉的事接二连三地发生在我身上。或许是他的置之不理,也或许是另一个他又再度走进我的世界的缘故。我真的快要崩溃了。我很爱很爱他,但为何另一个他却扰乱了这份爱?是那个他让我走出了荣的世界,但也就是同一个他让我伤心绝望。我有种无法自拔的感觉,但我清楚知道,一错再错是十分愚蠢的行为。珍惜对他的那一份爱是我所应该坚持的信念。

Saturday, September 25, 2010

2010年9月25日 没有王仕捷的第三百十八天,没有妈妈的第八十五天

我爱他 丁当

他的轻狂留在某一节车厢
地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下來
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱

如果还有遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好


his replies never fail to bring a smile to my face, loving him...

Friday, September 17, 2010

2010年9月17日 没有王仕捷的第三百十天,没有妈妈的第七十七天



preparation for SingTel N8 training early monday morning. feels like going back to school again. =P glad that it's finally over.

Saturday, September 04, 2010

2010年9月4日 没有王仕捷的第两百九十七天,没有妈妈的第六十四天


爸爸的爱心零食

daddy left for his malaysia trip late last night and i'm now officially home alone till monday. =( prepared lots of food and tibits for me before he left. *loves*

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

2010年8月31日 没有王仕捷的第两百九十三天,没有妈妈的第六十天

it wasn't me! =P


Monday, August 16, 2010

2010年8月16日 没有王仕捷的第两百七十八天,没有妈妈的第四十七天

the surprise that awaits me on my desk on wednesday morning. belated birthday pressie from yingyi, clive aka romeo and sky. thank you! i love the mahjong set to bits! =) one down and many more to go. there are juz too many variety to choose from the hello kitty range that kept me torn between choices.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

2010年8月14日 没有王仕捷的第两百七十六天,没有妈妈的第四十五天

=) no matter how little time we have together, it never fails to make me smile whenever i'm with him. tho i have no idea where this is gonna lead me to, i'll not give up no matter how tough the road ahead is gonna be.


12 August - Tempat Senang with Joyce and Yingyi

- Balinese
- Foot Reflexology
- Green Tea Scrub
- Aromatherapy Massage
- Hot Herbal Compresses
- Mud Wrap

it was a great 6 hours treatment. looking forward to our next getaway spa - OCTOBER!

06 August - Marina Bay Sands - Ben & Gerard Birthdays




i lost count of the number of 'oh my god' when each person stepped into the suite. lovely view of the city skyline, amazing in-suite facilities and of coz the great company. most of us are suffering from 5488 withdrawal symptoms and shall work towards 5498 next year! =P

Thursday, August 05, 2010

2010年8月5日 没有王仕捷的第两百六十七天,没有妈妈的第三十六天

每段恋情都会有属于它的主题曲。而总是有些主题曲一辈子都在提醒着我那些过去的恋情。年轻就是本钱,青春无价。当年的我没经历过任何风雨,也没碰过任何挫折,很单纯地认为能和她永远地在一起。不知从什么时候开始,我对永远的定义有所改变。永远不再是因相爱而在一起,永远是因责任和习惯。某人问我是否曾后悔当初那段不被看好的恋情。是那段恋情让我成长了不少,也是那段恋情改变了我的一生。她对我的付出和牺牲,让我终生难忘。我对她的亏欠,是永远弥补不了的。

约定 周惠

远处的钟声回荡在雨里
我们在屋檐底下牵手听
幻想教堂里头那场婚礼
是为祝褔我俩而举行

一路从泥泞走到了美景
习惯在彼此眼中找勇气
累到无力总会想吻你
才能忘了情路艰辛

你我约定难过的往事不许提
也答应永远都不让对方担心
要做快乐的自己
照顾自己
就算某天一个人孤寂

你我约定一争吵很快要喊停
也说好没有秘密彼此很透明
我会好好的爱你
傻傻爱你
不去计较公平不公平

为何感触那么深?