2010年1月26日 没有王仕捷的第七十六天

much as i would want to believe that he is busy with work, much as i would want to convince myself that he does not have time to reply my text, much as i would want to not brood over this issue, i could not help but feel upset. i have not heard from him for more than a week, since the last i saw him in town. i feel i'm beginning to lose the battle, the battle to fight against falling in love; i'm beginning to lose faith, lose faith in myself to move on.

2010年1月24日 没有王仕捷的第七十四天

夜了为什么还不想睡除了你我还在思念谁
我并不是害怕黑寂寞却喜欢把整个我包围
好想再重新和你爱一回让伤心的回忆通通都给化成灰
曾对你说没爱无所谓其实自己脆弱不知道应怎么面对

故意在街上给冷风吹等着你来温暖我心扉
终于也掉下眼泪爱情不知不觉的不翼而飞
请你永远都把我麻醉那不用醒后日日夜夜为你心碎
你的爱曾经是绝对我一辈子都会为我的愚昧而后悔

2010年1月17日 没有王仕捷的第六十七天

It's been a happy week coz he came back for a short visit. Pleasant surprise from him indeed as mentioned earlier this month. I'm glad that I managed to catch him this round since he would most probably not be back for Chinese New Year. Though I parted with him for less than 24 hours, I'm missing him already. Hope he'll get to be back again soon.

p.s. i like his new car registration number. =)

2010年1月11日 没有王仕捷的第六十一天

me and banks! find myself staring at the primary school me inside the mirror. i need to add life to this new year and decided to start with my hair. i actually love my new look, a nice change to a good start, i hope. interestingly, my parents are so amused by the short fringe that both of them can't stop grinning at my new hairdo.

finally, i decided to edit my facebook relationship status. i'm single! yeaps.. i'm hoping this would make me come to terms with him, not as a friend but the complicated relationship that we have. i doubt it will work but it is worth a try. i've thought about it. i really treasure him as a friend, and i hope we can be good friends. maybe, juz maybe, i'm afraid that i'll lose him if i continue to love him that i would rather be platonic friends with him. deep inside, i do wish things would work out between us. however, after the talk i had with him on the last day of 2009, it sort of make me realise that it's impossible for the both of us to be together, at least for him it is.

2010年1月7日 没有王仕捷的第五十七天

Ridiculous Episode

i'm not surprised that people would find out. i guessed as much that it would spread like wild fire. i know the whole episode is my fault. seriously, half of me was out to have fun, the other half was upset with someone else and decided on a rash move. yes, i admit i'm a selfish slut on this and did not think of the consequences. i juz find this whole thing blowing out of proportion. i wasn't looking for trouble. that's why i'm upset with how things turned out. if you can't afford to play this game, juz too bad. i don't care how those people see me and what they say coz they're not even my friends to start with. Also, i did not let any of my friends know of what happened coz it was unnecessary to stir more trouble and not that im ashamed of what i did. it was all in the name of fun, don't have to involve 'the whole world' as it's not of their concern.

Favourite Snack from Philippines


thanks to gerard for bringing the much loved local snacks from philippines. =)

missing the one in hong kong...

2010年1月5日 没有王仕捷的第五十五天

there're juz too much emotions running through me, i've no idea how to put them down at all. i wish i have an outlet to release all that i've been keeping inside me.