Catherine Stefanie Jordan

2011-12-30T01:13:00.001+08:00

from my silly dear

for my silly dear

2011-12-27T01:24:00.002+08:00

The Best Present this Christmas

it's been a long wait for him. needed much courage to face up to all the uncertainties. little did i expect the violent reaction from a close friend. apologies to all those who had to put up with the harsh words. much as i'm soaked in happiness now, i have to be honest about one thing, i'm not sure if this is real. juz wanna have a shot at this relationship, and to be fair, it's turning out to be better than what i expected. and it's the very reason why i'm beginning to worry about the reality.

2011-12-15T11:55:00.001+08:00

Underwater World

shirleen and i remembered the place to be much bigger though i can't recall when was my last visit to there. matthias simply loves the marine life, fascinated by the baby sharks throughout our stay. he's such a happy baby. glad to be spending time and doing silly things together like how we used to. it was an awesome start to a long weekend.

ZoukOut 2011

R&R = mahjong time!

i'm always impressed by ben tan and his self potrait skill, never fail to fit the whole group (almost)into the picture

siloso beach

there's always a price to pay - for marcus, it'll be the torturous 2 months of gymming and dieting; for me and buddy, it has to be the scotch whiskey

gift exchange - thank you sam! for the kitty

beer drinking contest - buddy 14 seconds, me 18 seconds =(

the PQ pose

our dearest AAA (access all areas) sofian

a great surprise amidst the fun =)

managed to get all the boys to take off their tops, all except buddy *bleah*

why am i not surprised that marcus died? buddy and gerard had to help him back to movenpick

the survivors at sunrise set

nice to end off a long day and night at the pool.. till 2012

2011-11-27T09:02:00.001+08:00

Feiyue x Zouk

Limited edition Zouk x Feiyue 20/20 sneakers - SGD169

2011-11-16T20:07:00.000+08:00

You are the Apple of my Eye 那些年，我们一起追的女孩

"I watched the Taiwanese movie and thought of you... Just wanna send you my best wishes and hope you will find someone who loves you dearly soon. *hugz*"

婚礼的那天，我哭了。
看了他送给老婆的礼物，我哭了。
电影的最后一幕，我哭了。
我会试着真心的祝福他，婚姻幸福。

2011-11-15T00:30:00.001+08:00

had more fun than expected. really have to admit that age is catching up fast. energy was drained by the amazing race though there wasn't much movement. *bleah* am suddenly missing FOC. brings back much happy memories. to be honest, i love my job more than hate it. despite times when i really wanna give up, there is this part of me which urges me to persevere on.

2011-10-12T21:24:00.002+08:00

06 October - 皮蛋粥

07 October - 油条

08 October - 水米果

09 October - 面线

10 October - 肉骨茶

11 October - Waffles with Ice-Cream

12 October - 苦瓜炒蛋

2011-10-10T22:47:00.000+08:00

What Are Words Chris Medina

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

2011-10-05T18:23:00.003+08:00

30 September - Duck Day

01 October - Chee Cheong Fun Day

02 October - Kway Chap Day

03 October - Pig Stomach Soup Day

04 October - Kimchi Day

05 October - Papadum Day

2011-09-30T18:54:00.003+08:00

29 September - Ban Mian Day

only the couple, bryan toh and chu kok loong did not finish the challenge. had to trouble yingyi to pack ban mian for me at vivocity food court and ended up having my ban mian at wine connection. =P

2011-09-27T21:50:00.001+08:00

Post Mortem - BKK

we binge on alcohol regardless of time and location

the lovely Le Meridien hotel room

the awesome hotel breakfast created in partnership with three-star Michelin Chef Jean-Georges Vongerichten

the cheap and good local food

the great company that made the trip perfect

2011-09-16T19:40:00.002+08:00

one of the best indulgences in life is a good manicure or pedicure, or both. *beams* love the new artwork on my toes. thanks to connie, PINC Plaza Singapura.

2011-09-15T21:52:00.000+08:00

we have shifted our drinking base to bar 2, due to the lack of TLC at members bar. *bleah* we're all hooked onto bryan's new concoction - secret. contents = secret, that's how the name's derived.

lunched at an awesome pasta restaurant. simply love their cream base pasta! can't believe i'm that late in trying this place. http://www.aglioolio.com.sg/home.html

2011-08-28T02:51:00.007+08:00

Jacky Cheung 1/2 Century Tour

my first love. he was simply awesome. a great 3-hour non-stop enjoyment.

Food Escapade - my loves

Lawry's ---------->

The English Cut (served with Yorkshire Pudding and Idaho Mashed Potatoes)

Astons ---------->

Black Pepper Chicken (served with Pasta Salad and Potato Salad)

Mushroom Soup (served with Garlic Bread), IBC Root Beer

Hatched ---------->

Le Rossini

El Chorizo

Melben Seafood ---------->

CM-PB ---------->

Mussels and Toast

Home-made ---------->

Bread, Cheese, Cold Cuts, Salad and Wine!

Brewerkz ---------->

Hawaiian Pizza

Calamari

Chicken Quesadillas

Chili Cheese Fries

2011-08-19T01:30:00.004+08:00

我们都傻杨丞琳

計算著為你留下了多少眼淚
就代表又對我的心撒了多少謊
但每次我都選擇選擇相信
相信你是愛我的

倔强的以为我真的能改变你
看你装无辜的眼神我很窒息
难道你没有看见看见我对你的好
还是你忘了那些数不清的爱情轨迹

你说我傻傻在爱上只懂爱自己的人
我说你傻傻在爱他你的眼睛骗不了人
我们都傻傻在为一段没有未来的爱情付出
还在期待会有奇迹出现
你说我傻傻在爱上没有感情的分身
我说你傻傻在爱他就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现

谁没有为爱做过傻事继续温习我会讽刺也无所谓
我说我傻傻在爱上没有感情的分身
你说你傻傻在爱他就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿放弃天真

还在期待会有奇迹出现
还在期待会有奇迹出现

2011-07-10T17:05:00.003+08:00

i'm in love with...

2011-07-06T00:59:00.002+08:00

Gemini

In ancient Greek mythology, Gemini's ruler - Mercury, was the light-footed messenger of the gods who darted back and forth across the heavens delivering news - which might explain why those born under the sign of the 'Twins' are always on the move; thirsty for knowledge and new experiences. Terminally curious and sometimes even mischievous, Geminis are multi-faceted souls who enjoy knowing a little bit of everything but generally not too much about one particular subject. It's just that variety is the spice of their lives!

In Astrology, Geminis have also gained the reputation of being the incessant talkers of the zodiac. Those Twins that don't have the 'gift of the gab' are usually talented writers or have a special interest in foreign languages. In love, they look for a partner who can keep up with them mentally and physically! And, to quote Oscar Wilde, "there's one thing worse than people talking about you, that's people not talking about you." Whether Geminis like it or not, people are usually "talking about them". Together with Scorpio and Virgos, they are a sign that is often discussed, dissected and sometimes even put down by the other signs of the zodiac. Sometimes this is a subtle form of jealousy by others, because Geminis do lead very unique and unusual lives. The Gemini personality can appear mysterious or detached to others and therefore they are often misunderstood and unappreciated for the talents they offer to the world at large.

Another reason Geminis evoke so much interest is many born under this sign are multi-dimensionally talented. In money matters, some Geminis are very adept and quick at making it...and spending it too. Many Geminis are involved in international financial wheeling and dealing. They love the adventure and game playing involved in out-thinking other people. Gemini's can be very haphazard about their financial affairs too, with many of them ending up in divorce courts mainly because their partners have become tired of living on the edge of a financial precipice.

Gemini is the Third Sign of the Zodiac and is vastly associated with storytellers, communicators and youth. This Sign is symbolized by Twins who are, in and of themselves, their own representatives. And is dual natured, complex and at times contradictory. The person born under this sign is a pool of versatility and since it is linked with Mercury, the person have graces and faults of the young. The Gemini person is very attractive and like children they are always happy, imaginative and restless. They are most enthusiastic about new ventures and the treat life as a game which should be always full of new rules, and devoid of any routine or regular labor. The great qualities of a Gemini are that they are easy-going, cheerful, confident and calm. They are also helpful and which is highly creditable.

The Gemini people are affectionate, courteous, kind and generous. They are quick learners to us their advantages of good looks to gain their own end of the bargain. Just like children, they seek for affection, admiration and go to any extent to gain that popularity.

Most Gemini has an in-depth brilliance and they are most enthused when faced with challenges that utilize the brain. They are agile by nature and have a voracious appetite for knowledge. Moreover, a Gemini has the capability to grasp, anything of intelligence, with lot more quickness than others. Intellectually they have an analytical mind which can dissect situations and events in a few moments.

A Gemini is very communicative, versatile and is very curious. A Gemini is always on the look out that how things work and is curious to the maximum extent. They would like to know a little of all things and would like to be the �jack of all trades�, and has the ability to skim through the surface to get the best thing out.

A Gemini, though at times may be fickle in love, but can also get emotionally involved. They can be witty at times and make very good entertaining companions and acquaintances. Even at appalling times, a Gemini can be playful and have a gift of the gab. But, usually a Gemini will make wonderful lovers, soft, tender and very attentive. Once can be in the seventh heaven with a Gemini lover.

A Gemini can attain success in any walks of life and they can ascend great heights with their use of language and speech. They can make excellent debaters, orators, teachers, authors, poets, journalists or lawyers. More so, a Gemini, prefer business which require lot of intellect and adaptable attitude to changing situations, like in brokerage work, public relation works or may just a traveling salesman. They will hardly squander any money and will take care of spending with a rational and logical mind. Since, they are rational, analytical and logical they can be good scientists in fields of medicine, while their casual attitude to danger can make them a desirable member in the Armed Forces. One can find an excellent artist in a Gemini in the fields of music, painting and sculpture.

A Gemini loves freedom and would not like to be restrained either physically or mentally. Though they do not prefer being alone, but to them variety is the spice of life. With their excellent conversational prowess they are never tired of talking and are avid readers. A Gemini is always keen to undertake multiple projects at once and have a keen eye for unusual and novel things.

To spice up things a Gemini has the required art to keep secrets and can keep it well hidden under the hat.

Personal and Social Life in 2011:

Busy as usual, Gemini? You'll make many commitments this year - but you might have troubles keeping them all. It's better to give an honest "no" than to have to break a promise. Remember that throughout the year.

If you're trying to catch up financially, you could bite off more than you can chew. There may be times when it's wiser to turn down extra work. What good is a growing account balance when you're too tired to enjoy it? Be realistic. Too often you operate on nervous energy, so you should build yourself up. And don't forget to eat foods that nourish your body.

In spite of the extra hours you're putting in, you should see your family and friends more often in 2011. Your companions could wonder why you don't call as often. If you explain to them that you're working more, they'll understand. Just make sure they know. Otherwise, your relationships could become strained.

June and October should be your best months. Make the most of them!

Love in 2011 - Singles:

If it's commitment you want, it should come your way. However, remember that both you and your partner will want lives of your own. Time spent apart with your own friends makes for sweeter reunions.

You're a smart person, and you're attracted to intelligent people. You crave the company of people with a lot to say. This year, you're likely to find more than one deep thinker, and among them there's likely to be one who touches your heart as well as your mind. It may, however, take you all year to find him/her.

You tend to change your mind a lot - about lovers and other matters. You can also make up your mind at the drop of a hat. If you decide that a prospective lover isn't for you, don't drop him/her like a proverbial hot potato. You could live to regret it. Everyone has bad days - so give this person another chance.

Career and Money in 2011:

Stability could finally come your way. The world situation has thrown you into a quandary, but now you're more focused and more likely to succeed at whatever means the most to you.

You're working two jobs: one, to keep the wolf from the door, and the other is a project of your own that you're hoping to market. The first job will bring in money; the second involves a few expenditures - and it also will take more time than you'd thought to bring to fruition. Hang in there. Aspirations keep us all going. Success will come in time.

You're intelligent, funny, and sharp, and most of your colleagues not only like you, but depend on you for new ideas. The problem is that there may be one or two who envy you, and don't even try to hide it. This can be confusing, and could make things really uncomfortable for you. Kill them with kindness.

You like to spend more than you like to save - but if you want to build a future, you have to set at least a little more money aside. Don't grimace; this effort will bear fruit.

In 2011, you should get ahead, but don't celebrate by throwing a big bash. Buy yourself a present - something you really want, but nothing outrageous.

Gemini and Libra love compatibility

These two air signs are well suited intellectually and every other way. It is difficult for the representatives of both signs to control their passions. If love makes this world spinning around then this couple gives an initial push for it. This is an ideal partnership. Both favor similar changes of interests. In the case of this pair, Libra is the judge and Gemini is the responsive jury in the nuptial courthouse. The combination's intellectual and artistic interests are compatible. Both sides of the Gemini nature will be under stood by the Libra. Both of them are passionate and nobody is too jealous at the same time . They characters have a lot in common , and they perfectly understand each other in bedroom. Libra is highly sexed and their lovemaking will never go lacking. Their sex-life will never be dull. This is a perfect connection; warm and happy married couple.

2011-07-04T12:16:00.012+08:00

Spent the past 2 weeks reading all the entries on my blog, from the very beginning, and reflecting upon my life.

For the past 7 years, i've fallen in and out of love numerous times, some of which were not recorded. I have conveniently attributed this behaviour or character of mine to be in relation with being a Gemini. Much as I know character is being moulded and changed as I grow up, part of it has to be the in-born factor. I apologise to those that I've hurt, but trust me, I know how it feels as I've my fair share of heartache caused by others too. There are times when I'm not as suave as I'm supposed to be, posing much worries to friends around me. People like yin, dear dear, dawei, mr tay and sjw will probably know what I mean. It took me years to get over (some probably not even over), but I'm glad I've moved on and became good friends with some, or at least on talking terms.

Someone mentioned during a conversation that it's weird to be friends with ex-boy/girlfriends, and I'm supposedly weird as confirmed by another. I have no issues with being friends after a break-up (though it may require some time), for I believe 因了解而分开. Especially for dear dear's case, being good friends is definitely a better option.

I've always believed in karma. Since university life, I've seen and experienced many cases of infidelity. Can't deny the fact that I'm a real bitch when it comes to BGR. Definitely not my intention nor my wish to get involved with attached or married guys, but it just happens. Some may be infactuation, some may be attraction, but mostly short-lived. Reason for this - Gemini. It isn't easy to keep my interest and once I lose it, I become a real bitch. However, there are guys whom I'll become blindly or crazily in love with and not get reciprocated. I did mention karma, didn't I? Yes, what goes around comes around.

Trust is always the issue that brings people closer or breaks them apart. I'm envious of people (mostly females) who has complete trust in their partners. At times, I wonder if it's the power of love, or are they simply giving chances. There is no way to keep tab on your partner to ensure no-cheating at all times. Even the nicest person around can be unfaithful.

Let me digress a little and move on to the definition of cheating. Getting someone's number at a club, continual text-ing with others for no official reason, sleeping with random person in a drunken state, are these considered cheating? There is no degree to cheating. Be it flirting verbally or physically, it's considered as cheating.

There are people whom we often label as players - no emotonal attachment, purely physical attraction, can be with one or many parties. There are people who commit to another person apart from their official partner. Which is worse - emotional or physical betrayal? My mindset has been warped. Anyone is capable of cheating, and is vulnerable to temptations. In order to keep a relationship going, it is at times good to be ignorant (pretence or not is another issue). I'm definitely not in favour of cheating but it no longer calls for a 'death sentence'. If you find out that your partner is cheating, 2 choices, break up or live with it, which will you choose? The answer is very much dependant on how much you love the person. And if you choose to live with it, will you be able to forgive and FORGET? By choosing to stay on, you would have forgiven your partner, but how sure are you of not bringing it up when suspicions arise? Is it even possible to give him/her the benefit of doubt?

I always wanted a partner who can accept me for who I am. It is tiring to be someone I'm not. It's almost impossible to give up clubbing and mahjong for they're almost the only social life I have. I can never understand why they disapprove clubbing, especially when I always have my friends to take care of me. I've recently experienced too much memory impairment after getting drunk that I can almost agree that I'm capable of anything.

The counter stopped but not the love for him. He has that special place in my heart, permanent resident maybe. I need to move on without finding out if things will ever happen or if there is gonna be happily ever after.

2011-06-16T09:42:00.005+08:00

2011年6月16日没有王仕捷的第五百八十二天

12 Jun

finally met up with yingyi at our favourite wine place =)

15 Jun

loves having "me" time

i've been awake for 25 hours and counting, setting a new record perhaps. *bleah*

2011-06-14T11:21:00.002+08:00

2011年6月14日没有王仕捷的第五百八十天

散场的拥抱倪安东

从你的眼角慢慢地明了
我能做的很少
原来你藏着伤但不想和我聊

你选的电影像某种预告
不坦白的主角
最后流着眼泪坚持独自走掉

散场的拥抱我还在燃烧
但你心里的浪潮拒绝让我看到
你煎熬不肯定什么是最想要
爱才又像乐园又像监牢

散场的拥抱混乱的心跳
多宁愿只是争吵还能道歉和好
我知道你留着和他所有合照
明明面前是答案却撕掉不要

呵护地祈祷温柔地讨好
爱能让人渺小
苦笑冒充微笑浪漫得不肯逃

散场的拥抱我还在燃烧
但你心里的浪潮拒绝让我看到
你煎熬不肯定什么是最想要
爱才又像乐园又像监牢

散场的拥抱混乱的心跳
多宁愿只是争吵还能道歉和好
我知道我们和你们不能比较
但我的爱多强悍出乎你预料

散场的拥抱我还在燃烧
但你心里的浪潮拒绝让我看到
你煎熬不肯定什么是最想要
爱才又像乐园又像监牢

散场的拥抱混乱的心跳
多宁愿只是争吵还能道歉和好
我知道太美的回忆像副手铐
越是挣脱越缠绕我比你明了

2011-06-10T10:30:00.003+08:00

2011年6月10日没有王仕捷的第五百七十六天

Birthday Pressie from Field Force

adding to my collection of mahjong sets at home. =) i love anything that's pink.

Mambo - 8 Jun

thank you everyone for your well-wishes, especially to those who contributed to the "surprise". the night was a blast and i'm glad i survived! =) the crowd went crazy when djB dropped pokemon! we love him for his spontaneity and creativity.

sometimes, i wonder if i had missed someone who truly cares in this long process of waiting and i apologise if i had hurt anyone unknowingly. the need to protect myself had made me less trusting towards people. please remember i'm a true blue gemini.

2011-06-07T01:46:00.014+08:00

2011年6月7日没有王仕捷的第五百七十三天

Hong Kong Day 1 (2 Jun)

Back at favourite town this June with dearies. *loves* Dropped our luggage at the reception of The Long Beach as poor Shirleen had to cancel her leave for the day. Lunch was a BBQ Pork Pastry for me and Chicken Pie for Hazel from Pie & Tart - 大角咀奧運港鐵站.Absolutely yummy! Sorry for the lack of visuals. Promise to be back with a couple the next trip. Spent the rest of the afternoon shopping at Citygate Outlets, Tung Chung and Elements, Tsim Sha Tsui. Hazel had her 1st dosage of H&M.

Adidas – Citygate Outlets, Tung Chung

夏麵館 – Elements, Tsim Sha Tsui

Hunger pangs finally set in after all the retail therapy and we settled for the most convenient choice. Their 小笼包 was pretty good, better than Crystal Jade’s in my opinion, but still not comparable to Paradise Dynasty. *bleah*

Met up with Shirleen for a quick drink after dinner at Grappas (basement of Jardine House), and if you’re wondering, yes, that’s where her office is. Gotta work late and we went to collect the spare key to her apartment. And I declare that our dear Hazel is a closet alcoholic. She was suffering from a runny nose since we touched down and was miraculously cured after a strong bow. *winks*

Hong Kong Day 2 (3 Jun)

Breakfast at 金華冰廳 – Bute Street, Prince Edward

I was satisfied with the鲜油菠萝包 but couldn’t resist the temptation of savouring my favourite egg tart from 泰昌饼家.

Headed to 大埔大美督 for hike at八仙嶺. To no one’s surprise, my prophecy of us getting lost was self-fulfilled when we were on our way back to the starting point. All the fruitless walking was paid off by a passing police van. *grins* while we stopped by the road to check for directions on the mobile, the van u-turned and asked where we were headed for. Both Shirleen and I were distracted by this other police seated at the front passenger seat and did not answer. Needless to say, he’s cute! *laughs* Hazel tried to make a reply and broke the awkward silence. They moved off after we told them we’ll be fine finishing the rest of the journey on our own. 3 “lost” girls in different shades of pink, they must have labeled us as bimbos. Shortly after, I saw the same police van coming in our direction, was wondering if they turned back for us. And yes, I got my answer when they u-turned again and stopped on the other side of the road. This time, another police at the rear seat spoke to us, emphasized that it was gonna be a long walk and offered to give us a ride downhill. We had a discussion prior to seeing them again and concluded it was seemingly inappropriate and unsafe for us to hitch a ride. Rejected them firmly and the cute policeman gave a thumbs-up sign. He must have been coerced by the rest to turn back to offer their help. The four of us (including Gracie) always share such ridiculously hilarious encounters/moments, making them more special than ever to me. Arrived back at our destination sooner than we expected and super glad to find this at a mini mart.

Arizona Drink 680ml Can

Took a break by the dam to enjoy our drink and the beautiful scenery.

Made our way back to Mongkok where Hazel had her 2nd dosage of H&M. The place was super packed with an undoable fitting room queue. We grabbed a couple of items that need not be tried on and some accessories. This was probably the shortest stay we had at H&M with Hazel. *grins* headed home to put down our loots, wash up and get ready for dinner. Shirleen was so excited wearing a brand new outfit out, well-deserved break for her.

Dinner at新斗記 – Express by Holiday Inn, Sharp Street, Causeway Bay

Had drinks at Oriental Sake Bar, Yu-Zen – Circle Plaza, Hennessy Road, Causeway Bay. Cozy and quiet place with awesome concoctions.

Hong Kong Day 3 (4 Jun)

Decided to have a taste of local breakfast at nearby Olympian City. Hazel finally got to try glutinous rice, 2 in fact. Abandoned our hiking plan as the cab uncle didn’t understood where we wanted to go and we were running late. Went straight to Central for Hazel’s 3rd dosage of H&M and were amongst the first few customers in-store.

Finally decided to get the white dress which had a top I loved but a bottom not too perfect; price was the main push factor.

Presenting our common lingerie! Shirleen said it’s been ages since we bought similar stuff, and hence, we got this! *beams* went through loads to find a design we like with the right sizes, matching bottoms and good fit.

Totally in love with their egg tarts and soya milk.

Met up with Kee at Sheung Wan to buy dried foods (mainly scallops for Hazel’s mum). I ended up with 2 huge bottles of dried longans and loads of other sweet sour stuff, awesome buys. Knew my parents, especially my dad would love them. Kee went to grab his lunch and while waiting, Shirleen brought us to visit a French market and we bought a yummy cake of cheese at a good price. Managed to grab 許留山 before our next stop at Hullet House – Canton Road, Tsim Sha Tsui for cheese festival. Kinda disappointing as it wasn’t as grand as I expected it to be, and many of the cheeses were sold out or low in stock that we couldn’t try. Nonetheless, we’ve got 3 different cheeses for our platter for Sunday evening’s dine-in. Spent the rest of our afternoon lazing at the pool and Jacuzzi, life’s just great having their company. I almost forgot to add that one of the lifeguard was such an eye candy (to me at least). *bleah*

Pre-dinner dessert, also my birthday cake at Paul Lafayet – Hanoi Road, Tsim Sha Tsui

Booked a late dinner as the place was packed, The Swiss Chalet – Hart Avenue, Tsim Sha Tsui. The food’s great but a little pricey. Thank you dearies for the lovely dinner. *hugs* May I add that we successfully converted Hazel to like cheese fondue! Had one of the worst drinks ever at a place that I didn’t even bother to remember, terrible cocktails and pushy staff. *dislike*

Hong Kong Day 4 (5 Jun)

Got up early for a swim, in the hope of seeing my eye candy, but to my slight disappointment, he wasn’t at the pool. However, it was still a great workout for the intake of calories for the rest of the day.

Breakfast at 聯邦皇宮大酒樓 – Olympian City II, Hoi Ting Road, Tai Kwok Tsui

While on the way to take the light bus to Sai Kung, Hazel tried to resist the temptation of 許留山 as we passed by not 1, but 2 of the outlets. She finally caved in after Kee said that it was meant to be. *laughs* the light bus queue was horribly long, but we gave it a shot as there weren’t other better plans than to visit the beach. Frequency of the bus was pretty high and we managed to board one in less than 20 minutes.

Our Ferry Ticket to and fro Sharp Island

Pressie from Shirleen – Shell or Monster’s Eye?

Amazing View

Settled down on the beach and yet another “interesting” episode while the couple was away to explore the waters. It was a pet friendly beach and there were loads of dogs running freely. I’m totally ok with dogs and I love them, but not when they look the least bit friendly. There was this wet little one who came by and rubbed herself against me, obviously using my body as her towel and did the same to Hazel, and a huge one came by and I freaked out, wondering if he would do the same. The worst scenario came when this naughty thing peed on our mat and wet Shirleen’s backpack. Was really thankful when the both of them returned. To my surprise, Shirleen’s reaction wasn’t as dramatic – tired maybe? Had our tea break at Ali Oli Bakery Café – Sha Tsui Path, Sai Kung. Tried and love their Black/White Sesame Milkshake. Ordered pizza, garlic bread and salad at Paisano’s – Chan Man Street, Sai Kung to take away for dinner. Waiting time is an hour which landed us at yet another food chain.

Honeymoon Dessert – Po Tung Road, Sai Kung.

The queue for light bus back to Mongkok was 3 times worse than when we came. Kee stood in line for all of us while we waited a good 15 minutes past an hour at Paisano’s. Still, we only got on a bus half an hour after we joined him.

Cheese Platter

Pizza & Garlic Bread

Kee’s awesome home-made Cocktails

Hong Kong Day 5 (6 Jun)

Finally! Breakfast at 添好運點心專門店 – Fuk Wing Street, Sham Shui Po

We initially joined the superb long queue at Mongkok outlet which opens only at 10am. Shirleen called Sham Shui Po’s outlet and we immediately hopped onto a cab when they said we wouldn’t need to wait for long. Concluded that we prefer Sham Shui Po to Mongkok coz of the space, staff attitude and most importantly, similar quality of food (tho the radish cake was a little less nice). Nevertheless, still my favourite dim sum place.

Made a trip back to明華餅家 – Yin Cheong Street, Mongkok to get 老婆饼 and 核桃酥. Routed to the apartment before heading to Elements for last minute shopping, Hazel’s last dosage of H&M for this trip.

Accessories for the girls from H&M

Dresses for myself from Zara

Butt Toning Shoes for myself from Reebok (Marathon Sports – Olympian City II, Hoi Ting Road, West Kowloon)

Frutips Lychee, Mango and Apple Pastilles (7-Eleven)

Sad that we had to part. 5 days seemed to have flown past us. Loves spending time and doing silly things together. Hope to see you back home soon!

p.s. visiting Hong Kong reminds me of him. much as I want to stop the counter, I can’t coz i still do miss him.

2011-05-19T10:45:00.014+08:00

2011年5月19日没有王仕捷的第五百五十四天

Universal Studios Singapore - 14 May

had a mini gathering to celebrate PP's and my birthdays. though it was my 3rd visit to the theme park, i had an awesome day! it's definitely the company that matters. took my maiden ride on the battlestar galactica. cylon was a little disappointing but human made up for it. gonna challenge myself to take the 1st row seats on human next friday. nothing beats a great dinner at the hotel room after a long but fun-filled day. cheese, ham, focaccia bread and wine = perfection!

Happy Things =)

thanks to hazel for sharing this pretty yellow dress from warehouse. i couldn't resist the temptation. total damage = SGD289. so wanna get the same dress in bright red but the last piece was a size 6 (which i unfortunately can't fit into). contemplating to get the fitted halter dress in cherteuse as well. i'm a sucker for dresses. =P

Mambo - 18 May

to welcome PQ and royston back and farewell for chu kok loong, we had a bottles night! moet, white wine, red wine, belvedere and vodka = madness. totally enjoyed dancing to djB's set. his new mix for mambo never fails to surprise us and brought life back to the dance floor. all 6 of us were high and it was ultimate fun and funny. in the midst of the chaos, i realised i 'lost' my BB and was whining about it. while buddy ben tried to console me, to everyone's horror, i took out the BB from my pocket and started texting as if nothing was wrong. ben and PQ gave me the look. i was laughing so hard as we recalled the incident. towards the end of the night, PQ and me attempted to affirm chu kok loong's sexuality. he had zero reaction when we tried to dance with him! how hurtful!

can't remember what triggered the emotions and the tears. time does not heal and distance does not matter. he is still the one.

2011-05-08T16:25:00.001+08:00

2011年5月8日没有王仕捷的第五百四十三天

Post General Election 2011 Reflection

a very big thank you to our government (particularly PAP) for the great 45 years and 9 months since independence. history has seen how singapore prosper and grow. peace and stability in the country have been taken for granted. no one can deny the efforts put in by the pioneers to be where we are today. i have absolute faith in their leadership. much as i feel that people's voices need to be heard, would more opposition in the parliament help? quoting evelyn, "Whether GY's team or LTK's team wins, it is a loss to Singapore", indeed we've lost a capable and admirable foreign affairs minister. the main cause of this, GRC system. this very same system has gained us a "kate spade ambassador". i believe many of the voters have chosen the opposition this GE as a warning to the PAP. the party has led singapore to success and i trust they will continue to bring the country to greater heights with a correct group of successors. in my opinion, opposition has the upper hand in terms of better potential successors (at least they know what to say, no pun intended). having said all these, i hope everyone understands that there's no way to change the GE results. to PAP supporters, give the opposition a chance to prove their worth. to opposition supporters, give PAP a chance to redeem themselves for whatever you think they have not fulfilled or done well. look forward to another amazing 5 years.

p.s. sincerely hoping for george yeo to replace tin pei ling in parliament

2011-05-02T21:37:00.003+08:00

2011年5月2日没有王仕捷的第五百三十七天

我们没有在一起刘若英

你一直说的那个公园已经拆了
还记得荡著秋千日子就飞起来
漫漫的下午阳光都在脸上撒野
你那傻气我真是想念

那时候小小的你还没学会叹气
谁又会想到他们现在喊我女王
你哈哈笑的样子倒是一点没变
时间走了谁还在等呢

这杯咖啡忘了加糖
真不是我那么伤感
世界太复杂你说单纯很难
我当然都明白

可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨

我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享

那条路走呀走呀走呀总要回家
两只手握著晃呀晃呀舍不得放
你不知道吧后来后来我都在想
跟你走吧管它去哪呀

这杯咖啡忘了加糖
真不是我那么伤感
世界太复杂你说单纯很难
我当然都明白

可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨

我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享

可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨

我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享
我们没有在一起至少还像朋友一样
你远远的关心其实更长

2011-04-20T11:09:00.003+08:00

2011年4月20日没有王仕捷的第五百二十五天

it's obvious what you wanted. to get rid of someone whom you don't want for good and in return get a perfect replacement. what right do you have to make your problem my problem? seriously, what lousy excuse is it to say that your retailer is hard to get along and give thousand and one others to justify your exchange. F-off!

2011-04-17T20:39:00.006+08:00

2011年4月17日没有王仕捷的第五百二十二天

Zouk 20th Anniversary Week

13 April - Day 1 - Mambo Jambo featuring special guest Aldrin

great to have aldrin back for mambo! he's juz awesome. hearing his set reminds me of the good old days. tho it was a night with juz PQ, royston and kok loong, we had good amount of fun! thanks to djB for the fantastic mix of retro and top 40s.

much as i started regular clubbing at zouk for the love of mambo, and much as i like retro music, i enjoy listening to top 40s as well. i can't understand why some people out there juz do not wish to conform to changes or rather be more receptive towards other genre. what happend 2 wednesdays ago says everything about mambo. at 0345, the dance floor was almost empty with everyone left (except gerald) looking super bored as B started his rampage of retro music. personally, i feel a good mix of retro and top 40s is awesome as it provides a balance and would reach out to more people. cheers to B! =)

14 April - Day 2 - Armin van Buuren

the crowd at AvB was crazy! no complains as it was quality spinning with happy company, buddy ben, justin, crystal, elaina and stevie!

15 April - Day 3 - The Official 20th Anniversary Celebration Party

glad to be part of the performing team at the party. personally, this mambo jambo segment is definitely nowhere near comparison to the esplanade performance 2 years back. nevertheless, we enjoyed ourselves to the fullest that night. and yes, i got myself wasted as usual. *bleah* how not to when there was free flow (including cordon bleu!) at members bar! the bartenders had fun playing santa, happily ordered drinks and place it at the bar for us without us asking. special thanks goes out to james for the never ending bottles of stella. and not to mention the numerous complimentary drinks coupons we got (thanks to natasha and especially sofian for the generosity). quoting royston, "20 years ago, we learnt a new 4 letter word Z-O-U-K. 20 years later, we learn 2 new 4 letter words F-R-E-E F-L-O-W".

original plan for 16 April - Day 4, was to chill out at wine bar after our wagyu and sashimi dinner. power of free flow led us to the decision of heading home after the awesome dinner.

2011-04-12T18:39:00.005+08:00

2011年4月12日没有王仕捷的第五百十七天

Daddy's Birthday and Retirement - 11 April

2011-04-11T20:11:00.011+08:00

2011年4月11日没有王仕捷的第五百十六天

Happy Things =)

my 1st pair of crocs - olivia cranberry

孙燕姿是时候

2011-03-29T17:18:00.011+08:00

2011年3月29日没有王仕捷的第五百零三天

why am i irritated by such a trivial issue? Yup. It has to be coz of the person involved. What's the point? Nothing's gonna change. I shall not bother myself with anything that has to do with the three letters again (not the one starting with J of coz). In an utterly bad mood now. Thanks!

2011-03-28T10:11:00.003+08:00

2011年3月28日没有王仕捷的第五百零二天

很爱很爱你刘若英

想为你做件事
让你更快乐的事
好在你的心中埋下我的名字
求时间趁着你
不注意的时候
悄悄地把这种子酿成果实

我想她的确是
更适合你的女子
我太不够温柔成熟优雅懂事
如果我退回到
好朋友的位置
你也就不再需要为难成这样子

很爱很爱你
所以愿意舍得让你
往更多幸福的地方飞去
很爱很爱你
只有让你拥有爱情我才安心

看着她走向你
那幅画面多美丽
如果我会哭泣也是因为欢喜
地球上两个人
能相遇不容易
作不成你的情人我仍感激

am not that into mr nice guy, tho i do not deny that i do like him. juz happen that one of the lines in this song kept ringing in my head. i'm beginning to doubt if we're even friends. maybe i was demanding in making the request that i would not go clubbing if you could accompany me. know it was out of concern for my swollen ankle. the answer was 'you know i can't'. or so i believed he really can't till 'i'm on my way to fetch a female colleague home'. oh well, seems like i'm nowhere near a friend, not to mention good friend. i wasn't joking when i said 'you're nice to everyone else except me'. it's a fact. acquaintance shall he be.

2011-03-17T20:58:00.003+08:00

2011年3月17日没有王仕捷的第四百九十一天

am so gonna get a chanel bag!

Large Flap Bag

Large Shopping Bag

Large Tote

can't decide which one to get. price place a huge importance in my final choice. *bleah* can't wait to bring one of them home!

2011-03-07T10:23:00.002+08:00

2011年3月7日没有王仕捷的第四百八十一天

"Never get too attached to anyone because attachments lead to expectations and expectations lead to disappointments"

this statement has been proven true so many times to me. much as i always remind myself not to expect too much or even expect anything at all, there are bound to be times when expectations arise. during such times, no matter how minimal the expectations are, more often than not, they will lead to unhappiness or worse, quarrels. i suppose when one becomes more attached to another person (especially a change in status), expectations tend to increase in one way or another. however, there are people who take things for granted, unknowingly lower the level of TLC given to the other party and hence, leading to disappointments. at this point, please do not become defensive and say "he/she should understand". it is always much easier to understand the situation fully when you are not in it. remember that there are two sides to a coin, you may be at the head one day, but you will never know when you will be at the tail.

i am trying my best to not have any expectations from him. everything else that comes will be a bonus. a simple email reply from him made my sunday. =)

2011-03-02T11:04:00.002+08:00

2011年3月2日没有王仕捷的第四百七十六天

am so hooked to this song. been looping it the whole morning in office. past week has been terrible - insomnia. had difficulty staying asleep through the night. i'd tried my best to engage in all sorts of activities in order to tire myself out - ineffective. decided that i've been thinking too much and kept my brain active while my body shut down. the lyrics of the song kind of struck me, and i'm feeling slightly better both mentally and emotionally. i swear insomnia is evil, it causes people to suffer breakdowns, i almost did.

2011-02-22T01:16:00.001+08:00

2011年2月22日没有王仕捷的第四百六十八天

自恋自拍

realised that i haven't been camwhoring for the longest time. *bleah*

2011-02-20T02:26:00.002+08:00

2011年2月20日没有王仕捷的第四百六十六天

reverse psychology does not work on me.. it has adverse effects.. >.<

i hate it when he tells me to find kenny.
i hate it when he asks me why i'm home so early.
i hate it when he says he wouldn't know even if i find other guys.

as expected, he's busier with his new job and have lesser time for his girlfriend, not to even mention me. am i becoming more demanding towards him? or that i've always been this attention seeking? he'd stopped finding time to call me when he's with the girlfriend. i wonder which is worse, missing the one in hong kong or missing the one who's so near yet so far.

2011-02-19T11:50:00.004+08:00

2011年2月19日没有王仕捷的第四百六十五天

i'm a sucker for colours. *bleah* got these at 25%. thanks to gracie dearie for the communal benefits. *grins*

2011-02-15T10:55:00.006+08:00

2011年2月15日没有王仕捷的第四百六十一天

‎5 years.. And counting?

The Prelude - 2005 Christmas Shaw Roadshow

2006 Dinner and Dance - Sales Consultants

2006 Team Building - Bintan Angsana Resort

Nokia Wisma Atria

Nokia Parkway Parade

Nokia Century Square

2007 Field Force Team

2007 Team Building - Bintan Lagoon Resort

2008 Team Building - Batam View Resort

2009 Comes with Music Campaign - Zouk

2010 Promoter Master Challenge

2011-02-13T00:37:00.002+08:00

2011年2月13日没有王仕捷的第四百五十九天

Perfect Nightmare Shontelle

Sometimes we fight, sometimes I cry
Why don't I just tell him goodbye
Sometimes I should, but sometimes I don't
Build up the strength to say that it's wrong
Sometimes I hate, sometimes I love
Sometimes I hurt, sometimes I don't
Sometimes I wait for him to change
But it's okay, I've disguised the pain
And I don't ever wanna leave him alone
They say I'm brainwashed but I'm in love with this man, yeah

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream
No way, no way, no way,
No way, no way, no way, no way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare

Sometimes I keep my cool, sometimes I let him know
Sometimes I even pack my bags to walk out the door
Sometimes I feel safe, sometimes I really don't
Sometimes I promise that I'm ready to let him go
But I don't ever wanna leave him alone
They say I'm brainwashed but I'm in love with this man

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream
No way, no way, no way,
No way, no way, no way, no way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare

Hoping he's changing, but I'm scared he's not
Can't see a way to leave, help me open my eyes

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it (no way)
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting (don't mind hurting)
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream
No way, no way, no way,
No way, no way, no way, no way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare

No way, no way, no way,
No way, no way, no way, no way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare

Perfect nightmare.

2011-02-08T02:56:00.005+08:00

2011年2月8日没有王仕捷的第四百五十四天

Mummy's Birthday - 07 February

aunty, cousins, nephew and niece came over for CNY visiting and celebrated my mum's birthday together. it's juz amazing how time flies. my nephew is gonna be enlisted in a few hours time. good luck! and make the most out of the 2 years. =) my niece is already into her 2nd year in cedar! so proud that she has joined the big family. once a cedarian, always a cedarian.

glad that he actually managed to squeeze time out to meet me for coffee. well, i'll definitely take his suggestion to start a log book on the times i get drunk, how i promise to try stop getting drunk and put my signature on it. he'll check the log everytime he's back. *laughs* one of the silly conversations that i'll have with him. some things juz never change. =) i always feel so comfortable and at ease talking to him. i do miss him loads. such happiness is shortlived i suppose.

me: so are you coming back this september?
him: *shakes head*
me: you're staying in hong kong? *half in shock*
him: moving to china.
me: when?
him: they're supposed to let me sign the contract these few days, nothing is passed to me yet. bosses wanted me to move after this CNY holiday, told them it's quite impossible.
me: how long are you gonna be posted there for?
him: at least a year.
me: *pouts and sulks*

my worst fear has been affirmed. it's gonna be a prolonged wait. *sigh*

p.s. happy to see him wear/use things that i bought for him, coz they'll probably remind him of me. *grins* much as i want him to start using the starwalker, i'm juz as afraid that he'll misplace it. *bleah*

2011-02-06T23:29:00.002+08:00

2011年2月6日没有王仕捷的第四百五十二天

have only myself to blame if i don't manage to catch him before he returns to hong kong. didn't plan to get drunk at all on cny eve's mambo, but i did eventually. *bleah* that did get me into loads of trouble at home and lots of inconvenience to my clubbing kakis as usual. many apologies. would have gone out with him after mambo and i probably wasted another chance as he called me late 初一 night (early 初二 morning) but i was already deep in sleep due to 除夕 night's mishap. was pretty upset as i assumed that he would be flying off this evening but to my surprise, he's flying back only early thursday morning! i'm not raising my hopes of meeting him as disappointment would be too mild a word if i don't get to see him. quite tight but possible, he says, maybe one of the weekdays late night or something. keeping my fingers crossed. in any case, i'm happy that he's staying. *smiles*

p.s. my mouse has died yet again. *grumpy* cat likes to scare the mouse so it dies easily.

2011-02-01T22:58:00.004+08:00

2011年2月1日没有王仕捷的第四百四十七天

Greetings from Sweden! *loves*

so sweet of the boys to send a postcard. =) it's gonna be a less noisy chinese new year mambo without them.

wonder if he's back in town. the anticipation of the possibility of seeing him tomorrow is killing me yet again.

2011-01-20T10:30:00.003+08:00

2011年1月20日没有王仕捷的第四百三十五天

think i should really start controlling my emotions and not letting it run wild. wonder what is wrong with me. why do i always want things that i can't have? *sigh* am i juz trying to fill up the empty spaces that he left behind? or am i really falling for mr nice guy? player by name? i hate. i love to play, but why do i end up being played out? this time, it hurts.

2011-01-19T01:07:00.006+08:00

2011年1月19日没有王仕捷的第四百三十四天

i'm such a auntie to be reading this. *bleah* but i like! found the books on the living room table and i couldn't resist the temptation to explore further.

2011-01-11T09:24:00.003+08:00

2011年1月11日没有王仕捷的第四百二十六天

so gonna miss the 2 boys for the next 6 months. they have flown off to sweden for exchange early this morning. m&m (mambo and mahjong) would not be the same without them.

2011-01-10T15:56:00.003+08:00

2011年1月10日没有王仕捷的第四百二十五天

cleared my shoe cabinet!

and i'm throwing all these away! 旧的不去，新的不来！*winks*

2011-01-04T03:19:00.002+08:00

2011年1月4日没有王仕捷的第四百十九天

was almost done blogging the whole hong kong trip when it has to happen again. wonder what i did to delete the post and *bleah* i'm too lazy to re-write. time passes too fast for my liking. someone asked if i'm sad to be going back to singapore in a few hours time. i'm more upset about the end of my leave period than anything else. feels good to have done quite a bit of shopping today to end this holiday on a great note. *beams* it is even better to have wine, cheese and snacks with shirleen and kee for dinner. thanks dear for everything over the past 5 days, especially the company.

spending time with the couple made me realised what i have been looking for in a partner - someone who can
1. impress me - need not be smart, talented or gorgeous looking, just simply know more things than i do, guide me through difficult times.
2. understand me - i don't need to be pampered all the time, just give and take appropriately.

seeing him the night before was further affirmation that i've not given up. it juz amazes me that i've been hanging on to this uncertainty for coming 3 years and still counting. past 2 months had been a disaster. honestly, i have no idea why i got myself involved with a boy 6 years my junior. simply pure craziness. this kid proved that i do need an older man to take care of me, i can never be the nanny in the relationship. will i have to wait for another 3 years or more?

2011-01-02T12:56:00.011+08:00

2011年1月2日没有王仕捷的第四百十七天

Hong Kong Day 2 (31 Dec continued)

- love our new year eve dinner by shirleen dear - huge bowl of greens (the salad bowl was her christmas pressie from kee), hashbrowns, steak for kee, bread, cheese and wine! excellent combination to end 2010

- the salad was cleared out by shirleen and me
- headed to west kowloon waterfront promenade for the countdown fireworks, may i add that kee was so proud to be able to fit in well with the locals with his big jacket with furry hoodie, shirleen called him marshmallow man, i think he could do with igloo man *laughs*
- we were surprised by crowd, the lack of it (not that we're complaining)

- and here's the moment!
- we were pretty disappointed by the display, the couple had seen better ones during national day and i felt that fireworks back home is definitely better *bleah*
- reluctantly left the place as we hoped there would be a climax
- took almost an hour for us to walk to jordan for 堂记肠粉 - fortunately, the 肠粉 was worth our half hour wait despite the fact that almost everything we wanted was sold out

2010-12-31T19:48:00.007+08:00

2010年12月31日没有王仕捷的第四百十五天

last post of the year! (point form is due to sheer laziness *bleah*)

Hong Kong Day 1 (30 Dec)

- great brunch by shirleen dear - french toast with bananas and peanut butter *beams*
- had lucky dessert at mongkok for tea - 榴莲绵绵冰 for her and 椰子绵绵冰 for me
- and yes! i had my favourite egg tart from 泰昌, 2 in fact, 1 flaky and 1 normal crust, flaky crust is new but i still prefer the normal one =)
- took a walk at pacific place's GREAT - our favourite supermarket
- sat down for 'the works' fries at a fast food place just outside GREAT as we waited for time to pass

- 1825: made our way to the pier for our junk ride!
- kee was late for an hour but that doesn't hinder our seafood dinner plan at lamma island
- i was freezing throughout the junk ride and hot tea at 天虹海鲜酒家 when we reached the island saved me from the cold
- food was ok but the company i had made dinner great!
- fell asleep on the junk ride back to kowloon

Hong Kong Day 2 (31 Dec)

- 1215: started our wilson trail hike at tai tam reservoir road

- supposed to be an easy walk but we outsmarted ourselves by doing a longer route which we had to go up god knows how many steps and take a few treacherous downward paths

- all the effort was worthwhile for the breathtaking views we had

- only managed to get to stanley close to 1600
- settled ourselves at pickled pelican - ice cold beer + yummy club sandwich + shirleen dear = bliss
- headed for taste supermarket at stanley to get stuff for our new year eve dinner
- reached back less than half hour ago due to a slight jam on our way back

2010-12-29T19:42:00.003+08:00

2010年12月29日没有王仕捷的第四百十三天

我真的很累。
不知从何时开始，我的人生变得那么复杂。
我真的那么不堪寂寞吗？或是我真的太贪玩了？
真期待明天的到来。离开这个既陌生又熟悉的地方。
我总是想痛快地哭一场来弥补心中的伤痛。
但眼泪能冲淡一切吗？
也许我应该回到不属于我的避风港。
不能拥有，但却能找到安慰。

2010-12-15T15:24:00.003+08:00

2010年12月15日没有王仕捷的第三百九十九天

Colourful 小笼包 from Paradise Dynasty

one of the two of my recent new loves - time-honoured delicacy with eight types of fusion 小笼包. never tried before flavours like crab roe, cheese, garlic, herbal, 麻辣, foie gras and black truffle. even the original tastes better than crystal jade's and price is similar to the latter. definitely going back there to have all eight flavours by myself. thanks to gerard and marcus for the great recommendation.

Apple iPad

yay! finally sold the iPhone to get the iPad! =) my mum was more excited than me when i brought it home.

2010-12-10T12:47:00.003+08:00

2010年12月10日没有王仕捷的第三百九十四天

Roy's Wedding - 07 Dec 2010

2nd wedding invitation on the 07 Dec, 1st was da jie's in 2008. i did mention the date's a good date, didn't i? *bleah* dear dear should have his wedding on 07 Dec next year too. roy's wedding was like a gathering for those seated at our table, mixture of Nokia field representatives and sales consultants back in 2005. though it's been a long time, there wasn't any sign of distance. had a great time talking of the good old times.

Charlie's Angels - Me, Joyce, Janice

Nokia Field Force 2005

a phone call yesterday afternoon made me a happy girl. yes! i'm obssessed and this obssession is growing despite the long distance. =)

2010-11-21T02:10:00.003+08:00

2010年11月21日没有王仕捷的第三百七十五天

i'm missing this guy like crazy. juz had a short 5 minutes conversation with him. no, it doesn't help. especially when he mentioned that he might not be around when i visit hong kong in late december. *upset*

2010-11-09T21:27:00.005+08:00

2010年11月9日没有王仕捷的第三百六十三天

09 Nov - Shanghai Day 2

Started our day at 7 degrees. Breakfast was bread with butter. I'm back to being a full fledged vege girl for these 8 days. I'll try to remember that I'm a vegetarian as reminded by someone *bleah*

Shanghai World Financial Center was our 1st stop. Nice view from the 100th floor. A little foggy but it was still a great experience.

2nd stop 城隍庙街, main shopping and entertainment area for the locals. The ancient architecture is probably the most interesting for me here. The 2nd picture shows my determination to be a vege girl during this trip. *winks*

Took a 2 hour nap on the coach to Suzhou after a full lunch. Power nap! =)

Lazily and pretty reluctantly got myself down at our 1st spot in Singapore Suzhou Industrial Park, 金鸡湖. Weather is really cool at 18 degrees, nice enough to take a short break by the lake.

耦园. Mum says it would be nice to stay in a house like this back in Singapore.

Probably the only temple we're gonna visit for this whole trip, 寒山寺. It's the 1st time that I come across a temple that needs a ticket for entrance! >.<

Early dinner at 5pm. Guess what?! My worst nightmare has come true. One of the dishes is black fungus fried with black fungus! =(

The sun has set after dinner and we went shopping at a nearby street. Figured that I still love the Hong Kong shopping scene much better. =D

p.s. no images of my current accomodation in Suzhou as it's too run down by my standards.

2010-11-09T02:32:00.009+08:00

2010年11月9日没有王仕捷的第三百六十三天

08 Nov - Shanghai Day 1

上海航空酒店

Honestly, I wasn't expecting anything for this trip. Just want to get away from work and take a break with my parents.

I'm impressed by the Pudong Airport as it is well furnished and comfortable to be in. It was 10pm when i touched down and 11ish when i was on the way to rest for the 1st night. The roads are definitely much better than the impression i was under. And yes! I have to agree to a certain extent that Shanghai is better than Hong Kong in that aspect. The streets seem cleaner (from the coach late at night) and the buildings are generally better maintained. Amazing!

2010-11-08T13:03:00.004+08:00

2010年11月8日没有王仕捷的第三百六十二天

will be leaving for the airport in a while. think i'm gonna miss my bed though i had a bad dream (of him) last night. it felt so real that i hesitated for 5 seconds after i woke up before deciding that it was a dream. wasn't totally bad, at least he was supposed to be moving back to singapore by the end of this year which is good. *bleah* he's gone missing for like more than a month, no email, no text. *sigh* was still hoping to be able to meet him this coming week. guess i was juz thinking too much.

2010-11-07T21:14:00.003+08:00

2010年11月7日没有王仕捷的第三百六十一天

i've always believed that horoscope/zodiac has got certain percentage of accuracy and truth in them.

狗 Dog

Personality
Honest , faithful and possessing deep loyalty and responsibility. Can be magnanimous and prosperous, yet also guarded and defensive, never really relaxed despite outer calm. She has a glib tongue, practical and realistic. The Dog is also trustworthy and generous to people and has a deep sense of justice.
This maybe the most likable sign of all in the Chinese cycle. A person born in the year of the Dog is honest, intelligent and straightforward. He has a deep sense of loyalty and a passion for justice and fair play. A dog native is usually animated and attractive and will exude sex appeal. Generally amiable and unpretentious, he will know how to get along with others as he is not too demanding. The egalitarian dog likes to meet others halfway, is always willing to listen to reason and can be counted on to do his share.
For a friend, you must know that whenever you are in trouble, all you have to do is dial D-O-G. For no matter how much he or she complains, scolds, feign indifference, the Dog person cannot ignore a real call for help. At times, the dog protects the interests of others more avidly than his own. The Dog often sticks to his object of affection no matter how unworthy the person is. You don't find a dog leaving home just because he discovers that his master has the proverbial feet of clay. He makes allowances for such frailties and will probably stick it out thick or thin.

The Dog likes: Routine, Challenges, Friends, Presents, Travel, Food, Play and Nature
The Dog dislikes: Mistreatment, Fakes, Discomfort, Rudeness, Dishonesty, Hunger and Anger

Compatible Animals: Tiger, Rabbit, Horse

Your Luck In Year 2011

Overall Forecast
You are honest and patient but stubborn and lack good interpersonal skills. Females like to listen to sweet talk and are always be remorseful of things, beware of it. Silence is golden but sometimes being conservative can hardly convince others. You are kind, diligent, independent, ardour and a self-learner. Your fortune would meet the turning point at your middle age, you will be wealthy in the old age, but may not have a long-lasting relationship in marriage.
Lucky stars are surrounding you, making it a free and easy ride for you this year. Those who wish to set up or develop your business can be entitled to do so. Students are shinning bright with a brilliant mind, and who would outperform their peers with some diligence sprinkled into it.
Your wealth is strong, but guard against scams. Your health is better, and family harmony is good when you all co-exist well.

Career
The trend of luck this year is suitable for your character; you have to treasure the golden chance. It is time to fulfill your longed-for wish. Business performance is increasing exponentially. Do harness a better relation with your office staff. The great time for extra-income has come and is waiting for your harvest.

Love
You will present indulging, passive mood for love, but the emotions are unsatisfactory. Although you may be congenial with the opposite sex, you should treasure your lover and not take things for granted. After the test of time, you will know that your lover is the one who supports behind you.

Wealth
Your wealth is excellent, where your mainstream income is abundant. But do not greed. Wise investment can bring in a fat harvest, so you may want to consider multiple forms of investments or plain savings will also suffice. Your personal income will be getting better after securing a small fortune in gambling in the second half of the year, as compared to overspending in the first half of the year. But guard against deceits.

Health
Your immune system is poor. You may want to ease down on drinking even with the hectic social networking. Stay happy to fend off the seasonal flu bug. The elderly is facing a weakened constitution, so have more happiness and healthy food as well as exercise in your life style.

2010-10-31T21:19:00.002+08:00

2010年10月31日没有王仕捷的第三百五十四天

i'm missing him like crazy. i reckoned that whatever silly things i'm doing now, they're all efforts to occupy my time. perhaps it's unfair to everyone else, but i really have no idea how to cope with this any longer. i'm on the verge of breaking down. can't wait for december to arrive but yet the anticipation is juz killing me further. much as i wish i could juz walk away, i know i can't bear to give up. i wonder if he's gonna be back for good next year, when will this waiting end?

2010-10-21T11:10:00.003+08:00

2010年10月21日没有王仕捷的第三百四十四天

我哭了。但为何还是那么纳闷？
好累，好烦。但想念还是那么深。
不断地重复着《你为什么说谎》。

2010-10-12T11:05:00.002+08:00

2010年10月12日没有王仕捷的第三百三十五天

妈妈终于返国。三个月的分离，真是度日如年。我终于不必为了繁重的家务而烦，爸爸也不会再感到寂寞。好期待下个月和爸妈的上海之旅。=）

最近总是觉得心神不宁，仿佛有些事在困扰着我。倒霉的事接二连三地发生在我身上。或许是他的置之不理，也或许是另一个他又再度走进我的世界的缘故。我真的快要崩溃了。我很爱很爱他，但为何另一个他却扰乱了这份爱？是那个他让我走出了荣的世界，但也就是同一个他让我伤心绝望。我有种无法自拔的感觉，但我清楚知道，一错再错是十分愚蠢的行为。珍惜对他的那一份爱是我所应该坚持的信念。

2010-09-25T01:51:00.002+08:00

2010年9月25日没有王仕捷的第三百十八天，没有妈妈的第八十五天

我爱他丁当

他的轻狂留在某一节车厢
地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下來
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱

如果还有遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

his replies never fail to bring a smile to my face, loving him...

2010-09-17T19:38:00.003+08:00

2010年9月17日没有王仕捷的第三百十天，没有妈妈的第七十七天

preparation for SingTel N8 training early monday morning. feels like going back to school again. =P glad that it's finally over.

2010-09-04T12:00:00.003+08:00

2010年9月4日没有王仕捷的第两百九十七天，没有妈妈的第六十四天

爸爸的爱心零食

daddy left for his malaysia trip late last night and i'm now officially home alone till monday. =( prepared lots of food and tibits for me before he left. *loves*

2010-08-31T11:15:00.002+08:00

2010年8月31日没有王仕捷的第两百九十三天，没有妈妈的第六十天

it wasn't me! =P

2010-08-16T14:17:00.004+08:00

2010年8月16日没有王仕捷的第两百七十八天，没有妈妈的第四十七天

the surprise that awaits me on my desk on wednesday morning. belated birthday pressie from yingyi, clive aka romeo and sky. thank you! i love the mahjong set to bits! =) one down and many more to go. there are juz too many variety to choose from the hello kitty range that kept me torn between choices.

2010-08-14T00:38:00.002+08:00

2010年8月14日没有王仕捷的第两百七十六天，没有妈妈的第四十五天

=) no matter how little time we have together, it never fails to make me smile whenever i'm with him. tho i have no idea where this is gonna lead me to, i'll not give up no matter how tough the road ahead is gonna be.

12 August - Tempat Senang with Joyce and Yingyi

- Balinese
- Foot Reflexology
- Green Tea Scrub
- Aromatherapy Massage
- Hot Herbal Compresses
- Mud Wrap

it was a great 6 hours treatment. looking forward to our next getaway spa - OCTOBER!

06 August - Marina Bay Sands - Ben & Gerard Birthdays

i lost count of the number of 'oh my god' when each person stepped into the suite. lovely view of the city skyline, amazing in-suite facilities and of coz the great company. most of us are suffering from 5488 withdrawal symptoms and shall work towards 5498 next year! =P

2010-08-05T10:55:00.004+08:00

2010年8月5日没有王仕捷的第两百六十七天，没有妈妈的第三十六天

每段恋情都会有属于它的主题曲。而总是有些主题曲一辈子都在提醒着我那些过去的恋情。年轻就是本钱，青春无价。当年的我没经历过任何风雨，也没碰过任何挫折，很单纯地认为能和她永远地在一起。不知从什么时候开始，我对永远的定义有所改变。永远不再是因相爱而在一起，永远是因责任和习惯。某人问我是否曾后悔当初那段不被看好的恋情。是那段恋情让我成长了不少，也是那段恋情改变了我的一生。她对我的付出和牺牲，让我终生难忘。我对她的亏欠，是永远弥补不了的。

约定周惠

远处的钟声回荡在雨里
我们在屋檐底下牵手听
幻想教堂里头那场婚礼
是为祝褔我俩而举行

一路从泥泞走到了美景
习惯在彼此眼中找勇气
累到无力总会想吻你
才能忘了情路艰辛

你我约定难过的往事不许提
也答应永远都不让对方担心
要做快乐的自己
照顾自己
就算某天一个人孤寂

你我约定一争吵很快要喊停
也说好没有秘密彼此很透明
我会好好的爱你
傻傻爱你
不去计较公平不公平

为何感触那么深？

2010-07-19T23:00:00.003+08:00

2010年7月19日没有王仕捷的第两百五十天，没有妈妈的第十九天

loves skype coz i get to talk and see mummy at zero cost! say bye bye to long distance calls. thanks to 淑芬! just ended the conversation with peeps over at india. take care! catch up soon on skype!

如果时间真的能冲淡一切，为何我对他的思念还是一天一天地加深？

2010-07-18T23:26:00.002+08:00

2010年7月18日没有王仕捷的第两百四十九天，没有妈妈的第十八天

想念你。想拨通电话给你，听听你的声音。
或许我已不存在你的世界，但你却还是我的全部。
我们真的只能做好朋友吗？
好想投入你的怀抱，好想靠在你的肩。
会有结果吗？

世上只有妈妈好，没妈的孩子像根草。

2010-07-11T23:21:00.003+08:00

2010年7月11日没有王仕捷的第两百四十二天，没有妈妈的第十一天

had a good lesson with my dad and his friends tonight. wish he had told me the story much earlier and i would have put it into good use. it would have saved me lots of unnecessary trouble. i've always looked up to my dad, and he has my utmost love and respect, always will.

finally spoke to mum over the phone after ten days of separation. miss her so much. counting down to 29 september since the day she left. trying my best to spend as much time with dad as possible. fitting my schedule around his. hope he doesn't feel too lonely without my mum's presence.

for him, nothing's changed. to be honest, i was pretty affected by the recent facebook posts. if you had wanted to upset me with those words, then congratulations! but i won't let this disrupt my life or emotions for it would be too stupid of me. met up with dear dear for lunch yesterday and he asked if i'm intending to wait for him. i really dunno. the rational me will say no as things will not be what i want them to be, but me being the emotional me, i will. it's time to make a decision.

2010-07-01T23:01:00.005+08:00

2010年7月1日没有王仕捷的第两百三十二天，没有妈妈的第一天

back from the airport. realised i was right in not sending jay off last year. it would have been juz as difficult to fight back the tears. feel silly for letting the emotions run for i know 3 months gonna fly past me before i know it. but i've never been apart from my mum for such a long time, i'm so gonna miss her.

2010-06-27T23:01:00.003+08:00

2010年6月27日没有王仕捷的第两百二十八天

如果当年我懂得珍惜他，现在的我们是否会不一样？
或许后悔已经太迟，但我真希望时间能倒流，让我重新选择。
我一直认为是我当初伤害他在先，造成他对我的不信任。
有办法弥补这个错误吗？

2010-06-19T23:12:00.002+08:00

2010年6月19日没有王仕捷的第两百二十天

seeing the familiar streets in the movie reminds me of him. i know i'm silly. been hoping for my phone to ring, hoping for him to ask me out. *sigh* i'm juz too hopeful. it's juz not gonna happen. for the past months, he's never had time for me each time he's back and probably never will. i'm nothing to him, probably juz a good friend if there need to be a relationship defined. missing him like crazy, and i really wish i can have more time with him. i suppose it's not possible. wonder what he's up to now, wonder if he knows i'm here thinking of him.

2010-06-17T21:26:00.003+08:00

2010年6月17日没有王仕捷的第两百十八天

i'm so hopelessly in love. miss snuggling in his arms. miss our late night coffee sessions. miss mcdonalds fries with salt. miss hanging out with him. been a long time since we went on a proper date. *sigh* wonder if i'll be able to catch him again before his flight on sunday.

好朋友罗志祥

像两首节拍不同的歌
却又同时被爱情合奏
旋律勉强着
愉快不能够假装快乐
你心中有宽阔的天空
空气还稀薄
曾经等待因为会改变什么
你总会属于我
但是最后时间证明了
你只喜欢我

你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞

如果爱情是五线谱
我只希望用全音符
吟唱出爱上你
那完整的幸福
当你的心没有耳朵
即使我为你唱着歌
你也只看见我哭了

你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞

曾经因为等待会改变什么
你总会属于我
但是最后时间证明了
你只喜欢我

你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞

你说我是你最好的朋友
却不应该再拥抱着
你退缩你冷漠
于是我放开双手
不在乎我的心会永远的寂寞

2010-06-07T01:08:00.004+08:00

2010年6月7日没有王仕捷的第两百零八天

catherine beauty series

so loving the facial masks. he chanced upon it while searching for my pressie. i'm probably biased but he's never failed to surprise me with 'customised' gifts. *smiles* the meet up has proven that time has not changed anything, not for me. glad that he managed to squeeze out some time to accompany me. fallen in love and still falling in love. looking forward to seeing him next week. *beams*

thank you dearies for the birthday dinner at sml and drinks at sheraton! and of coz, many thanks to shirleen and kee for hosting us amidst the madness of getting your apartment into order. and also, thanks to hazel for the company throughout. i've truly enjoyed myself this 买东西，吃东西，买东西，吃东西 trip. *grins* can't wait to start planning for the next.

not forgetting the wonderful birthday surprise kes arranged on wednesday. it was truly a great surprise seeing so many people at jack's place for dinner. thanks to all for making time and for making me drunk before midnight, and to the boys and kes for sending me home. it's gonna be payback time in time to come. *winks*

to everyone else who sent your well-wishes through sms or facebook, thanks for remembering and making this birthday special.

2010-05-20T10:23:00.002+08:00

2010年5月20日没有王仕捷的第一百九十天

so intoxicated and so sleepy now. last night's mambo was a blast! love byden to bits. =)

i'm sorry for calling so early in the morning. i'm sorry for texting emo stuff again. i'm sorry for not being able to rationalize things. i'm sorry for not being able to forget you. i'm sorry for everything that i've done and not done. nothing has changed since you left for hong kong, not for me. you might have found someone else, you may find me not good enough for you, but i still love you the same. there was this question in the speed dating registration form: what qualities do you look for in a partner? my immediate answer was him. he's everything that i wanted, almost perfect i suppose. i guess it's juz not meant to be but i'm still waiting.

2010-05-10T10:56:00.007+08:00

2010年5月14日没有王仕捷的第一百八十四天

It's been a peaceful 3 months till it decided to come back and wreck havoc again. Sick and tired of having to put up with its nonsense time and again. Don't even wanna mention its name as the very thought of it irks me. I wonder what he has given his army that they are all so obedient. Do they not have eyes to see nor ears to hear? My sympathy goes out to all of you. It's time for me to speak.

I know it since years ago at zouk. My 1st impression, very touchy animal. I distanced myself as much as i could for i was not interested in it and i kept this impression of it to myself as kes seemed to be on very good terms with it. I did not want to be bad-mouthing someone as it might juz be me. Soon after, it left the zouk scene for overseas studies. When it came back for good, i let it start on a fresh clean sheet, only to realise that some things juz wouldn't change. It tried to hit on me many times, but things juz didn't go its way.

Sarah's appearance was the turning point, he seemed serious about dating her, or so i thought. I was drunk one night and being the 'caring' friend, it offered to fetch xiao bai and me home. It claimed i seduced him and it caved in to temptations (which guy wouldn't as it mentioned). The fact is, it tried hitting on the half-drunk me despite me reminding it of sarah. I remember clearly what its response to me was, don't mind about her. At that moment, i juz felt silly for believing that it and sarah were for real. Anyway, it was another failed attempt for it. Then on, i've heard a couple of stories of how it tried greasing other girls, including someone we know. I wonder if the ever so innocent, pretty and smart masters holder sarah knows about all its doings but juz oblivious to them or is she juz rumoured to be smart. Is the greaseball worth her giving up her family and hubby for? It said i was spreading rumours of sarah and it. People at zouk have got eyes, you kissed and hugged her openly and believe that no one would see?

For kiat's case, i've apologised. But who is it to fault me? It broke up a then great girl's marriage and tried to hit on kiat's (who is supposedly a good friend) girlfriend. Apparently, it wanted to get everyone at zouk to go against me because i came between kiat and girlfriend. Shouldn't it get them to go against itself as well?

Sick and tired of wrestling with pigs, coz even if they lose, they will still enjoy it.

p.s. To all animal (including pig) lovers out there, it does not refer to an animal, it's worse than one.

2010-04-30T17:31:00.001+08:00

2010年4月30日没有王仕捷的第一百七十天

transparent tiles =) thanks to sky for the good bargain

Mambo

it was a great mambo on wednesday coz tony tay was simply fantastic. despite the unfortunate incident (which has been blown out of proportion again by childish people), the boys, kes and i enjoyed ourselves to the very last second of tony's set. i was ecstatic when he started spinning my favourite song after the seemingly last song of the night, dancing queen. i've done this on facebook but i'm gonna do it again. thank you to tony tay for the great mambos, we will hear u at velvet. =)

The Unfortunate Incident

much as i do not wish to pollute my blog and waste my time on certain people (or should i use pests or dogs?), i was thinking to myself, why not when i have a bit of time to do so anyway. *laughs* i wonder if the 'community' has got nothing better to do than stirring trouble all the time, or are they so in love with us that they need to seek our attention. well, how do you prove yourself to be a worthy 'leader' to your 'man' by fighting people who are supposed to be weaker than you are. which gentleman, or rather, which man would want to get a girl's (though i'm probably known as a boy now with my multiple claims) head and which man would fight a gay? i have no absolute no respect for such person. honestly, i really wanted to put my fist into the irritating face, but i'm glad my rationality won my temper this time. i would be stooping to his low level if i did, like i mentioned to kes, this guy's not worthy of him losing his cool.

Hong Kong Boy

this afternoon's sms was a surprise. though nothing much was said, but it really made my day. he had gone to shanghai and hence, the no news for the past week. miss him loads.

2010-04-25T20:52:00.002+08:00

2010年4月25日没有王仕捷的第一百六十五天

Won't Go Home Without You by Maroon 5

I asked her to stay but she wouldn't listen
She left before I had the chance to say
The words that would mend the things that were broken
But now it's far too late, she's gone away

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

The taste of your breath, I'll never get over
The noises that she made kept me awake
The weight of things that remained unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

Of all the things I felt but never really shown
Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go
I should not ever let you go, oh oh oh

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

2010-04-20T22:21:00.005+08:00

2010年4月20日没有王仕捷的第一百六十天

Too Hopeful

him : "you're too hopeful about us."
me : "i'm not!"

yingyi : "you're always so hopeful."
me : *speechless*

*sigh* am i really being too hopeful about me and him? though i've been hurt by the truth time and again, i still wanna believe i would be able to move him one day. silly isn't it? much as i want to trust his words that he's not attached, i believe there's someone that he's attracted to at the moment. guess he probably find it hard to break the news to me for fear of my reaction to it. i really want him to be honest with me and i promise to be as cool about it as i can be. will he confess? maybe they're right about him being too busy with work, but maybe he's juz too busy dating someone else.

Chicago The Musical

attended the musical with yingyi on saturday. it was fantastic! i wouldn't mind going a 2nd time if someone or anyone needs a date. *hint hint*

Dinner with Da Jie

it was a great night out with da jie at liquid kitchen. miss the old times when we used to have so much fun working together. many things have changed since, but we're still the same old us. =)

2010-04-16T23:28:00.004+08:00

2010年4月16日没有王仕捷的第一百五十六天

彼此的距离似乎越来越远，就好像活在不同的世界。
希望是我太多心，太多疑。
他在我心中已落地生根，相信没人能取代他的地位。
或许我真的中毒太深，无法自拔。

M1 lollipops made my long and tiring day =)

2010-04-12T21:52:00.005+08:00

2010年4月12日没有王仕捷的第一百五十二天

带我走杨丞琳

每次我总一个人走
交叉路口自己生活
这次你却说等我走
某个角落就你和我

像土壤抓紧花的迷惑
像天空缠绵雨的汹涌在你的身后
计算的步伐每个背影每个场景
都有发过的梦

带我走到遥远的以后
带走我一个人自转的寂寞
带我走就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫
我不怕带我走

每次我总独自远走
保持缄默不皱眉头
这次你却说一起走
彼此温柔从此以后

像土壤抓紧花的迷惑
像天空缠绵雨的汹涌在你的身后
计算的步伐每个背影每个场景
都有发过的梦

带我走到遥远的以后
带走我一个人自转的寂寞
带我走就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫
我不怕带我走

白马溜过漆黑尽头
潮汐袭来浪花颤动
凝在海岸结成了墨

蔷薇朝向草原气球
邮差传来一地彩虹
刻在心中拍打着脉搏

带我走到遥远的以后
带走我一个人自转的寂寞
带我走就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫
我不怕带我走

"真希望他能够带我走
我会无怨无悔地跟着他
就算不能够到永远
我会珍惜曾经拥有"

爱心水壶，巧克力 =）

2010-04-08T09:57:00.002+08:00

2010年4月8日没有王仕捷的第一百四十八天

好久没有他的消息。
在他的世界里，似乎已经没有了我的空间。
心痛已到极点。
或许是时候放弃，但我始终没有勇气。

2010-03-29T00:38:00.003+08:00

2010年3月29日没有王仕捷的第一百三十八天

doing my best to keep myself occupied by planning all sorts of activities, including taking up the drivers role at NTU run round singapore 36 hours event. much as i try to not think of him, deep down inside, i know i miss him juz too much. little things like pumping petrol at serangoon gardens shell station, seeing pocky on the shelves anywhere, dancing to the songs at mambo, would juz remind me of him. no doubt it's silly, but i juz couldn't help it. everyday, i would check my mail to see if he's replied, but it's been disappointing for the past week. *sigh* maybe he's busy again. hope he's surviving or survived the bad weather in beijing.

2010-03-11T09:34:00.002+08:00

2010年3月11日没有王仕捷的第一百二十天

Sixth sense or woman's instinct? I somehow had the hunch that he's back in town and would surprise all of us last night. I was right! Swear I didn't read his email till I got home from mambo. Maybe this is what is called telepathy? =) a good one.

It was a usual night with the boys coming in late again, due to mahjong and not school work. Kes and me tried a new drink on the menu (which I had forgotten the name) and a beer. Feeling bored, we decided to head out to look for Sofian, only to find out that he wasn't working. When we were back at the entrance of members, Kes went 'Is that...' and I finished the sentence for him 'Jay', and he continued 'and...', 'Jerald!' I exclaimed. It was a great big surprise and coincidence that both of them are back the same period. *beams* I texted the boys excitedly about the duo's presence. They arrived shortly after and we had a good time catching up with Jay buying a round of drinks for everyone.

The night passed with the usual gang heading out to wine bar at the 'stipulated' time and Jerald leaving early as per normal. Hope he gets to transit again real soon. After a few rounds of drinks at wine bar, we went back to the dancefloor at 145 as Marcus did not want to miss his Bad Romance again. Well, I did not get to dance to the song (if Byden spinned) as I left around 215 with him. Don't tsk tsk me, can't help that I've got a soft spot for him.

On my way to Suntec City now for IT Show. Guess why I can blog while travelling? Traffic jam? Nope. Coz i'm on bus 133! *laughs* good time to blog and it's time to alight! Gonna try my luck at asking him out for dinner. *crossing my fingers* Hope he's available.

2010-03-02T11:07:00.003+08:00

2010年3月2日没有王仕捷的第一百十一天

Right Kind of Wrong by LeAnn Rimes

I know all about
about your reputation
And now it's bound to be a heartbreak situation
But I can't help it if I'm helpless
Every time that I'm where you are
You walk in and my strength walks out the door
Say my name and I can't fight it any more
Oh I know, I should go
But I need your touch just too damn much
Loving you, That isn't really something I should do
I shouldn't wanna spend my time with you
Well I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
Ya, baby you're the right kind of wrong

It might be a mistake
A mistake I'm making
But what you're giving I am happy to be taking
Cause no one's ever made me feel
The way I feel when I'm in your arms
They say you're something I should do without
They don't know what goes on
When the lights go out
There's no way to explain
All the pleasure is worth all the pain
Loving you, That isn't really something I should do
I shouldn't wanna spend my time with you
Well I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
Ya, baby you're the right kind of wrong

I should try to run but I just can't seem to
'Cause every time I run you're the one I run to
Can't do without what you do to me
I don't care if I'm in too deep

2010-02-23T21:38:00.003+08:00

2010年2月23日没有王仕捷的第一百零四天

'The joy of intimacy is the reward of commitment' - nina's current facebook status.

i so agree with this statement. asked myself this question many times, 'what am i expecting from him?'. it would be a lie to answer nothing, but there's really nothing to expect, or rather i shouldn't expect anything. no doubt, i'm doing everything because he's the one, the one i love, the one i care about. his commitment would be the best reward for all that i've done, but that's almost zero probability. i'm not worried that he's not going to commit, but i'm scared of him leaving me one day, for good.

2010-02-22T11:21:00.002+08:00

2010年2月22日没有王仕捷的第一百零三天

seriously, i hate to work with people who are just plain stupid. i admit that i'm being biased, but he has not done anything to prove his worth. honestly, he's got an assistant for training stuff, which is almost the only thing he has in his portfolio. i don't see how busy he can get. i suppose if he could give up some time shopping at suntec with his wife and kid during lunch hour, he would be able to finish his job? past events has made me despise him, i don't have any respect for people who back-stab and worse, tries to be a nice person after thinking people are silly enough to believe him again. please, put your pea brain into whatever use it has. once bitten, twice shy. for all that you've done (not to me yet), i'll never ever trust you (i shouldn't have on what juz happened). you're juz giving me more reasons to believe that you're not worth the promotion, you're juz plain lucky to have gotten the post with the almost zero qualifications you have. or maybe not as lucky as others who has gotten a better offer in another company or born in a more well-off family. if they're still around, you can forget about being where you are today.

2010-02-19T10:55:00.002+08:00

2010年2月19日没有王仕捷的第一百天

*beams* was really happy to see him at mambo. never thought i would miss someone so much, never expected myself to have him on my mind all these while. kept myself really busy this CNY as i knew he's not gonna have time for me. i juz hope i would be able to meet up with him before he leaves next tuesday.

2010-02-07T00:15:00.003+08:00

2010年2月7日没有王仕捷的第八十八天

yay! he should be back for CNY! i'm happy!

ice bomb

ingredients for the above concoction: raspberry vodka, mandarin vodka, vodka and sprite. with compliments from marcus who wanted to try something new. potent but surprisingly smooth drink.

2010-02-02T20:27:00.003+08:00

2010年2月2日没有王仕捷的第八十三天

my work station has upgraded! from this..

to this!

i'm pretty happy and contented with my new desk and the location. =)

singtel CNY soft toys

me @ dempsey

a very random post, true reflection of my everyday life. i'm missing him..

2010-01-26T02:33:00.002+08:00

2010年1月26日没有王仕捷的第七十六天

much as i would want to believe that he is busy with work, much as i would want to convince myself that he does not have time to reply my text, much as i would want to not brood over this issue, i could not help but feel upset. i have not heard from him for more than a week, since the last i saw him in town. i feel i'm beginning to lose the battle, the battle to fight against falling in love; i'm beginning to lose faith, lose faith in myself to move on.

2010-01-24T23:37:00.002+08:00

2010年1月24日没有王仕捷的第七十四天

夜了为什么还不想睡除了你我还在思念谁
我并不是害怕黑寂寞却喜欢把整个我包围
好想再重新和你爱一回让伤心的回忆通通都给化成灰
曾对你说没爱无所谓其实自己脆弱不知道应怎么面对

故意在街上给冷风吹等着你来温暖我心扉
终于也掉下眼泪爱情不知不觉的不翼而飞
请你永远都把我麻醉那不用醒后日日夜夜为你心碎
你的爱曾经是绝对我一辈子都会为我的愚昧而后悔

2010-01-17T19:32:00.001+08:00

2010年1月17日没有王仕捷的第六十七天

It's been a happy week coz he came back for a short visit. Pleasant surprise from him indeed as mentioned earlier this month. I'm glad that I managed to catch him this round since he would most probably not be back for Chinese New Year. Though I parted with him for less than 24 hours, I'm missing him already. Hope he'll get to be back again soon.

p.s. i like his new car registration number. =)

2010-01-11T00:43:00.005+08:00

2010年1月11日没有王仕捷的第六十一天

me and banks! find myself staring at the primary school me inside the mirror. i need to add life to this new year and decided to start with my hair. i actually love my new look, a nice change to a good start, i hope. interestingly, my parents are so amused by the short fringe that both of them can't stop grinning at my new hairdo.

finally, i decided to edit my facebook relationship status. i'm single! yeaps.. i'm hoping this would make me come to terms with him, not as a friend but the complicated relationship that we have. i doubt it will work but it is worth a try. i've thought about it. i really treasure him as a friend, and i hope we can be good friends. maybe, juz maybe, i'm afraid that i'll lose him if i continue to love him that i would rather be platonic friends with him. deep inside, i do wish things would work out between us. however, after the talk i had with him on the last day of 2009, it sort of make me realise that it's impossible for the both of us to be together, at least for him it is.

2010-01-07T21:24:00.005+08:00

2010年1月7日没有王仕捷的第五十七天

Ridiculous Episode

i'm not surprised that people would find out. i guessed as much that it would spread like wild fire. i know the whole episode is my fault. seriously, half of me was out to have fun, the other half was upset with someone else and decided on a rash move. yes, i admit i'm a selfish slut on this and did not think of the consequences. i juz find this whole thing blowing out of proportion. i wasn't looking for trouble. that's why i'm upset with how things turned out. if you can't afford to play this game, juz too bad. i don't care how those people see me and what they say coz they're not even my friends to start with. Also, i did not let any of my friends know of what happened coz it was unnecessary to stir more trouble and not that im ashamed of what i did. it was all in the name of fun, don't have to involve 'the whole world' as it's not of their concern.

Favourite Snack from Philippines

thanks to gerard for bringing the much loved local snacks from philippines. =)

missing the one in hong kong...

2010-01-05T02:00:00.002+08:00

2010年1月5日没有王仕捷的第五十五天

there're juz too much emotions running through me, i've no idea how to put them down at all. i wish i have an outlet to release all that i've been keeping inside me.

2009-12-31T16:37:00.002+08:00

2009年12月31日没有王仕捷的第五十天

i've crashed. life seems to have come to a standstill. i should have woken up from this dream earlier. i know what i have to do and what is best for me - move on, but i clearly do not wish to do so. things were made clear right from the start and his stand on our relationship has never changed. i'm juz so wrong in thinking that i could change this fact, or rather, i started to believe that i succeeded which is so not true. i brought this upon myself. much as i want to take a step back and plan for the road ahead, i juz can't bring myself to give him up.

2009-12-30T17:30:00.004+08:00

2009年12月30日没有王仕捷的第四十九天

I miss Hong Kong;
Miss my favourite yummy egg tarts;
Miss the shopping;
Miss not having to work;
Miss him being by my side every morning when i wake up;
Miss the breakfast he prepares;
Miss waiting for him to get off work;
Miss spending time with him;
I miss HIM...

2009-12-29T21:25:00.003+08:00

2009年12月29日没有王仕捷的第四十八天

爱心早餐

表面上装得再坚强，也无法抹掉心中的不舍得。

在过去的七天，我找到了幸福。

能和喜欢的人同住一个屋檐下，一起生活，真的好开心。

他是否有在挂念着我？

分隔两地的滋味真不好受。